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greetings.

the thing about today is that this is the last day of 2009. this post will be another piece of trash, but whatever, I just don't have any other thing to do. yes it's new year eve, but I'm stuck here with nothing to do. so let me just hurt your eyes with some pointless words.

and the thing about ending this year is, doesn't it feel sad? a bit, at least? 2009 to me is a whole 365 days full with enormous things, vary from the monstrous to the tiniest ones. to recall them one by one is not a thing normal human can do. I'm still normal at much points I suppose, so I won't recall them, not one by one.

just now I'm trying to acces my so-called memories of 2009, my brain millions of scenes I'd passed. honestly, some of them were really ridiculous, yet precious and meaningful. to many people my days would be really ordinary, but to me, they were really really important. priceless.

okay honestly i don't know what else should i be typing and i know this post has really no point but forgive me, i really need to do something before my head explode out of boredom. gonna kick some pillow. bye for now, wish you a happy new year!

I am a gorgeous cheerleader with a nice smile. I punched Taylor Swift because I'm a pimp.

You've opened it!
You will have bad luck for four weeks!
But, if you re-post this,
You will get kissed by your crush on Friday!
Re post as "I am a ...."


What color of shirt are you wearing?
Red: Silly.
Brown: Cute.
Green: Gorgeous.
Blue: Sexy.
White: Muscular.
Aqua: Freaky.
Yellow: Innocent.
Purple: Little TOO happy.
Black/don't remember: EMO.
Orange: Funny.
Gray: Dumb.
Pink: Preppy.
Light pink: Sweaty.
Multicolored: Tree- hugging.
Other: Hot.
None: Sexy beast.

What kind of pants are you wearing?
Skirt/Skort: llama.
Corduroy: Cage fighter.
Skinny jeans: Pothead.
Shorts: Cheerleader.
Ripped Jeans: Skater.
Cammo: Hillbilly.
Jean short shorts: Whore.
Jeans: Prep.
Cargo: Clown.
Sweats/basketball shorts: Gangster.
Booty shorts: Bum.
Pajama Pants: Slut.
Checkered: Taco lover.
Nothing: Mother banger.

What is your NATURAL hair color?
Dark brown: With a hot boyfriend/ girlfriend.
Auburn: With a broken heart.
Red: With a hot butt.
Black: With a nice smile.
Dirty blond: With a hot body.
Brown: With beautiful eyes.
Blond: That flirts too much.
Strawberry blond: That is to much to handle.
Light brown: With amazing eyes.

You opened it, now you have to complete it.
Or something very bad will happen to your loved one.
READY SET GO!!
Pick The Month You Were Born In:
1. (jan) - I ran over.
2. (Feb) - I kicked.
3. (Mar)- I slapped.
4. (Apr) - I injured.
5. (May) - I ran shirtless with.
6. (June) - I modeled with.
7. (July) - I smoked with.
8. (Aug) - I ran with.
9. (Sept) - I kissed.
10. (Oct) - I robbed.
11. (Nov) - I hate.
12. (Dec) - I punched.

Pick the day (number) you were born on:
1. Barack Obama.
2. Lil Wayne.
3. Michael Jackson.
4. Zac efron.
5. Nick Jonas.
6. Paris Hilton.
7. Madonna.
8. Miley Cyrus.
9. Lady Gaga.
10. Elmo.
11. Taylor Swift.
12. Spongebob Squarepants.
13. Soulja Boy.
14. Lil' Mama.
15. Katy Perry.
16. Britney Spears.
17. Ryan Sheckler.
18. Big Foot.
19. Randy Jackson.
20. Mariah Carey.
21. Colby O'donis.
22. The Black Eyed Peas.
23. Simon Cowell.
24. Flava Flav.
25. Chris Brown.
26. The Cookie Monster.
27. Akon.
28. Barney the Dinosaur.
29. Paris Hilton.
30. Ronald McDonald.
31. Jenifer Green wood.

Pick the color of shirt you are wearing:
None: Because I'm SEXY like that.
Black: Because I love weed.
Pink: Because I'm crazy like that.
Turquoise: ​Because I like to snort cocaine.
Brown: Because gummy bears raped me.
Polka Dots: Because I'm a tranny.
Purple: Because I'm gay.
Grey: Because I like shoelaces.
Yellow: Because I'm retarded.
Green: Because I'm a pimp.
Orange: Because I'm a mental retard.
Red: Because I love sex.
Blue: Because I have AMAZING boobs.
Tye dye: Because I'm a fucking scuba diver.
Graphic: Because that LOSER stole my taco.
Coral: Because a dolphin took my baby.
White: Because i have a great body.
Neony: That's just how I roll.

She Was Mine

So I hopped on a train

Three in the afternoon

I don't know when I'm coming back

But I hope it's soon

See I'd never thought, never thought that I'd leave your side

It's only physically

But now that you'll be on my mind

Twenty four hours at a time

Cause in my eyes you were mine

No matter where you go

I won't be very far

Cause in my head I'll be right there where you are

Cause love has no distance baby,

Love, love has no distance baby,

No, not when it comes to you and me

See she wrote me this letter

Said the weather wasn't better

But she said that she's doing fine

I wanna see you face to face

That's what she wrote to me that day

and I knew it was all a sign

So I wrote back with this song

Promise it won't be too long

Wanna make up for all our lost time

Cause in my eyes you were mine

No matter where you go

I won't be very far

Cause in my head I'll be right there where you are

Cause love has no distance baby,

Love, love has no distance baby,

No, not when it comes to you and me

So I'm looking through this boxes

My life's gone off track

Cause it's been three years

She hasn't written back

But in my eyes

She's still mine

I know it sounds stupid

to be waiting this long

But I'm still in love and I know I'm not wrong

Cause in my eyes

She was mine

No matter where you go

I won't be very far

Cause in my head I'll be right there where you are

Cause love has no distance baby,

Love, love has no distance baby,

No, not when it comes to you and me

She Was Mine by A.J. Rafael feat. Jesse Barrera

~I know this lyric is somehow cheesy but whocares, I love it!

Could you differ?

When you were learning how to ride a bicycle, you'll ask a person to place a good grip on your bike, so that you won't fall.

The first time you were learning how to walk, you'd like someone to watch your back, so when you're about to fall, that someone will catch you, will leave you no harm, you're safe and sound.

Now that you've grown up, things changed a bit. You'll walk, yes, this time without anyone get a hold on you or to catch you when you fall. But in this path you're walking, you'll eventually find a person, a certain person, who will help you to stand once again everytime you fall.

ingin ditemukan

"sedang apa?"

"mencari orang."

"orang siapa?"

"si pasangan."

"mengapa?"

"karena setiap orang yang hilang ingin ditemukan."

RLA, 221209. 10:33 a.m.

The Hundredth, 17th, and the First.

I’m not gonna say “sorry for the lack updates” again, since that phrase seem had become quite famous in many posts of mine and in other blogs of others too. I opened this blog, now and then, but just stuck in the middle not knowing what to write. But now I have something I'd regret if I don't tell. Here I welcome you to the hundredth post of my blog!

Well, there are reasons why I keep postponing typing the words here. First of all, being a 12th grader is not an easy task, it keeps me from doing my routines which I love most like posting something to this blog, or even go surfing. Surfing the cyber world, I mean. The whole homeworks, tasks, exams, and also try outs are giving me a very severe and torturing pain in the ass, to the point where I originally think that I can’t do these kinds of things anymore. I still managed to watch some movies and DVDs though, thank God those watchings are able to keep me sane.

And my family and I moved into a new house. This moving doesn’t make a huge impact though, you need less than 5 minutes to reach my new house from the old one. Actually I hate moving. It’s silly how you need to unload your stuffs from your cupboard, your table, your bookshelves and other places, then you pack them into boxes, and you carry the boxes all the way to your new house, then after you arrive you need to get your things out of the boxes again, and lastly, you need to reload your shelves and cupboards and table with the appropriate things again. Isn’t that a hell lot tasks to do? Not to mention moving the furniture. So that is also my reason of not posting, I’m really, really exhausted. I even caught flu from the number of dusts I inhale. The only thing I love from moving to this house is that my room is pretty. And I love it so much. I’ll describe it later, cause I’ve got a bigger things, more important issue –at least for me- that I’d like to say.

I’m 17 years old now, yeaaay! ;p

I know I’m getting older and my lifespan is getting shorter but 17 is still 17. Like a birthday will always be a birthday. Someone doesn’t turn into 17 everyday, right? So based on that logic, I’d like to reserve my right to enjoy this day. The turning-seventeen thing actually doesn’t make any big impact on me. I’m not different than the person I was yesterday, though in some points, I’m improving. But this improval doesn’t really happen the second I’m a year older, it took place somewhere in the year I’m passing. It’s not like the things in games like Pokemon or whatelse in which when you reach a level, you’ll evolve. Our life is much more greater than games, put in account that every single thing we do evolves us in ways we might never noticed.

Sharing about the birthday event, God grants my wish to enjoy the day with every fraction of the second in it. To be honest, I knew that there'll be something someone gonna give to me. To be more exact, I was expecting a surprise. I know that's sad and many of you would think things like, "Oh you expecting a gift, or whatever? Poor you." But let me say that this is just normal. Why couldn't you expect something special on your special day?

Okay, let's continue. Judging the clues that have been given here and there, I know that my expectancy was not wrong. You know, the surprise thing and sort of. But I really don’t expect seven friends and a boyfriend of mine would show up in my room in the middle of the night while I was fast asleep. They are Edwin, Fandy, Astra, Pretet, Nindya, Syiki, Santi and Niken. They barged in to my room and woke me up by singing Happy Birthday. This was the thing I didn’t grasp a foresight. There are this huge board showing photos of my friends greeting happy birthday, and they were scrapped in a book too, not to mention the musical box and blueberry cheesecake. To sum it up, if you ask me a question goes like, “what do you think about today?” then I’ll answer, “Today is my day. It is totally sweet.”

Here are the evidences of the midnight surprise:

The best cake brought by the best man

Me opening the gift. It is a musical box with the tiny bear inside spinning when you open it. Oh I know my hair looked weird.

the board with the photos. Thanks for the greetings, all! :)))

the surpriser and the surprisee ;p

More words for December 11th 2009, it is me and my boyfriend first anniversary :---)))

We’ve been passed through all the rough times, so let’s just forget them and continue on, shall we? You’re so great that I’m so grateful to have you. Happy 1st anniversary boy, te amo!

Ten To One

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to People
1. "I'm living at that green apartment by my own now, feel free to visit!"
2. "I could help you but I just don't want to. Sorry."
3. "Hey I got 100 for Physics! What, you got 20? Work harder then."
4. "Your poses in photos are unexceptionally disgusting."
5. "That's your prob, not mine."
6. "I got my novel published, let me treat you. What would you like?"
7. "You're talking bullshit."
8. "I hate you."
9. "I just bought this car with my first salary. I still save some for you, Mom."
10. "I just want to see you, I may say nothing. Are you still willing to come? Oh that's great. Okay, see you."

Nine things about myself
1. I love multitasking.
2. I tend to forget clicking the send button after I finished typing the message.
3. I had not taken a bath consecutively for 4 days.
4. I hate corn, but I love popcorn.
5. I need a cup of tea every morning.
6. I don't mind going out by myself.
7. I love playing with words, especially the one that rhymes. Eventhough their meanings have nothing to do with me.
8. I want my first child to be a girl.
9. I got really pissed when I got my plan severed.

Eight ways to win my heart
1. Sing me my favourite song.
2. Keen on music or sport or other hobbies.
3. Give me surprises.
4. Find out things about me no one else knows.
5. Be expressive.
6. Love kids.
7. Got his family as his first priority, even above me.
8. Spontaneously decide random things when going out with me.

Seven things that cross my mind a lot:
1. The upcoming tests
2. My boyfriend
3. My bedroom-going-to-be
4. My health
5. Twitter and blogspot
6. Messages in my inbox and sent items. Don't know why.
7. Me.

Six things I do before I fall asleep
1. Salat al 'Isha.
2. Wash my face.
3. Listen to the best lullaby cd I've ever bought. Contains nature sounds like rain and waves and others.
4. Turn the lights off.
5. Pray and recite some parts of Quran soundlessly.
6. Close my eyes.

Five places I want to visit
1. London.
2. Japan.
3. The Leaning Tower.
4. Somewhere snowy.
5. My grandpa's grave.

Four things I'm wearing right now
1. Nearly white tee.
2. Red shorts.
3. Blanket.
4. Undies.

Three bands that I listen to often (Currently)
1. The Script.
2. Copeland.
3. Secondhand Serenade.

Two things I want to do before I die
1. Attend my youngest daughter's wedding.
2. Live in a house with my kind and loving husband.

One confession
1. I have no liking towards TV shows.

Copied from Nunu's blog.

Sunflower

"a sunflower will always gaze towards the sun with neither hate nor regret

it will continue to look up with a smile, even through strong wind and heavy rain

patiently bearing the pain, while waiting for the sun to shine once again

but the sunflower has never felt, or will it ever feel, any regret."

credit: www.lookthatflowers.com

The Rest of Your Life

-When Harry Met Sally

A Confession

I might be a hypocrite, to take the words I've said back. I might be so low, to shallow back all the things I've said and done. I might sound like a liar, said something at the first seconds then after that I said that I didn't mean it to be like that. I might be one asshole, judging here and there without thoroughly knowing. I might be stupid, to not hold on my own conscience. I might be the spoiled brat who seems to haven't been satisfied by anything. But I just can't lie.

How can I not love you?

What do I tell my heart?

When do I not want you here in my arms?

How does one waltz away from all of the memories?

How do I not miss you when you are gone?

How can I not love you?

...this is for you.

What You Have

Everything that we have, should be held tight, should be appreciated, should be placed at your best care, at your best concern. Because there'll be someday when they slip away from you, when nothing you do could take them back.

What you have right now are the ones that want to capture your very attention. They'll wish to whisper to your conscience if they could, to thank you when you treat them well. So why hesitate? Why ignoring instead of caring?

You don't have much time. Now is all you have, since the past has gone and the future is not yours to see. Appreciate them. Be grateful.

You and Yourself

It's been a long time since the last time I did this old habit of mine. The habit's gone since I happened to get my mind in doing something else.

Since ages, I always find it good to let my mind free, from every single other thing. And then, the mind will set its focus to the me myself. I usually spend it looking at the ceiling, or stars if I had the chance. And checking messages in inbox and sent items, just to grasp a scratch of how I response and what are the feedbacks. Or reading the old silly diaries, and sometimes adding other silly text there. And also going back and forth through my memory storage, reviewing everything that my senses had sensed, recalling everything that ever happened to me or the ones that had something to do with me.
It is to remember every step that had brought me to the place I'm standing right now. To remind me that the person I love deeply is my very self.

It is a great thing when you have a time for yourself, and I mean it really is only for you. It's a quality time that rarely occurs, which you are in the center of the other things, where you are the utmost concern. Oh it feels so nice letting your mind peacefully floating along with your imagination, and also smoothly delivering images behind your eyes that no one else can see.

Sometimes we feel this world rolls too fast, don't we? Since we were kids we used to think about us and us and us again, but we grew old and sometimes it's just hard to think only about us. There're lots of things stole the attention, and it's time to realize that in this life you can't just selfishly act based on your one and only will, because no one would like it when you talk only about you and yourself. World ask you to care first if you want to be taken care of. Therefore, your time is being sliced and sliced, leaving you only the slightest glimpse to catch yourself. So when you find the time, seize it.

Then just to share again. Sorry for being so selfishly talking about me ;p
Take care, people.

Things That Are Not Proper

Greetings. First of all, eid mubarak, people. Please do forgive my mistakes, and all the harsh words and everything in this blog that might not goes good through your senses. Yea I know it's soooo late but by the way. Better late than never, right?

I'd like to bow my head more and apologize if this writings of mine do nothing but bores you to death cause in my own case, I do bored. haha. Or are there ones that offense you so much? please forgive me for that too, sometimes my fingers type faster than my brain thinks. .....And sorry again for the excuses.

In this post, I intend to speak a certain thought, which in times has been swirling in my mind. Due to the rebellious age I'm in, I believe that this would be just a bull typing, so if you don't like it, I recommend you to just skip it.

You know, as a person get into other people, he creates new bonds, which should be taken care of. In any way that person willing to have. Some bonds requires more attention, and responsibilities. For example, you need to pay more attention to your family bond than to your friendship, although both are important to you. The responsibilities you have to bear are also different, whereas creating a family is much more complicated than meeting friends.

Family starts when a man and a woman promised to each other to be together sacredly, seriously, wholeheartedly. Hence, they are bound to the responsibility to take care and love each other. It is then by the will of God that this man and woman given tiny copy(ies) of them, their children. They are now parents, who now have another responsibility, to take care of their children. Even though the children might be troublesome, it's parents duty to pay attention to them, to be with them, to give them happiness to play with. To get this works, they need to work together.

So it is wrong to ignore each other. It is wrong to blame the children. It is wrong to lose trust on each other. It is wrong to say harsh thing, or worse, accuse each other. It is wrong to not listen to the children. It is wrong to let your emotion blew up. It is wrong to dominate the other person. It is wrong to put yourself above the other person, no matter how much 'happiness' you've brought home. It is wrong to not apologize. It is also wrong to ask for an apology, or moreover, beg for it. And it is an absolute mistake to drag everyone to feel guilty towards you --either direct or indirect--, or to make them, by your patience-destroying words, acknowledge your superiority.

You know parents, we admire you. From head to toe. We are your blood and your flesh, who can't exist without you. We did mistakes, yes, and we sorry for that. We know you've done great jobs, bringing the lights of the world home, and we deliberately grateful for that. Although we might not show... cause we thought our smile and laughter had told you. I don't know whether this would ring bad or what, but for God sake, you are grown-ups so please, can't you grasp the fact that the troubles come in this bond you create is the risk destined to you the second you agree to bear the bond?

...please, don't make us lose the affection towards you. we don't want it to be happening. and thanks for the money, if that's the matter.

and I'm not going to go against you or against the other.

...just want to share.

A Memory

Human's brain is the best computer ever exist. Name the most sophisticated computer people ever made, none has barely reach the same class as the brain. It has incredible space to save all events ever happen, to record everything ever seen, tasted, heard, touched whatsoever. It is the best storage to every thought, every memory.

It's a good thing that people could maintain their memories but then there are some memories that feel too troublesome, too hurting, unlikely to be remained. But you need to get what I'm gonna say next.

Although that memory isn't more than the one that offenses your heart, even it will always hurt your heart, and even for everyone the memory is so painful that it is best to get rid of it forever, you should never run away from it. If you're not running away and you keep on working, then one time you'll be able to appreciate the memory, and grateful that you still have it. It may be hard, but anyone can do it (not running away, I mean) if they believe they can. There is no memory that isn't valuable enough so it's going to be forgotten. God gives you a brain so you could remember, therefore there is no need for you to struggle trying to forget whatever painful memory you have. Believe me, every single memory is priceless.

I know I'm talking bull whatsoever, but that is clearly my own opinion. You could tell me yours, people. Be seeing you later!

A Chronology

Back then when you were just a little kid, everyone seems bigger, much stronger, capable of things you couldn't do. But this life was your greatest playground. Moreover, there was no game over, wasn't it? This was an endless game. You hop and jump and run all over the place, like this life is created definitely only for you. There were obstacles on your way, you stumbled and fell. Hence, you had your head face the ground, while the pain in your knee started to sting your eyes. You then were crying then people started to pay attention towards you. Lending their helping hands to get you quiet and still again, for everyone's composure. Among those hands, you noticed the pair of hands that feel just the best. They were the softest and the warmest, the ones that give you the easy feeling, that everything's gonna be just all right. So you danced your life out, thanking you have other shadows behind you that would always look at you, in case you fell of or something. The days were inevitably sweet. The nightmares were always being ease up by everyone's sweet calming words.

Then, you're growing up. You begin to notice things. You couldn't do reckless things no more. Everyone's counting on you to take care of yourself, since they have many more things they need to take care. Ah, the world starts to feel so lonely. The shadow following you is only your very own shadow, none other is accompanying. And then you wait. Oh, you find a friend. And here comes another one. Then comes other people willing to accompany you, this was the first time you experience friendship. You begin to smile again, you know that you're not alone.

Somehow you noticed that there is this certain someone among your friends whose existence feel just different to you. The one whose existence welcomes you to a decent new world you'd never dreamt of. The existence, that has much more meaning to you than other people around. It has something to do with your heartbeats, which, getting faster each time you sensed that person. Somewhere in your heart you wish that one person's shadow to follow you. To much extent, that person is the one you'd very like to be with. The wheel of fortune turns around and somehow, you and that person are being together. Lessons you learn this time? They are the sense of belonging, and the art of missing.

Updating

I should have been studying or doing my homeworks or something else than typing this, but anyhow, I need to let my fingers do something....at least on the keyboard.

So. Updates? Nothing interesting lately, just other sequences of motonous things. And oh finally I pay more attention to my very own body, after a long time of abandoning. Not really abandoning, though, but that was my mom opinion of the way I'm taking care of myself. So finally, I went to a beauty house or sort of and had the hair treatment which sucks up the money I'd prefer spend on loads of novels. And the doctor adviced me to cut my hair. To a short one. HA! I'm so not doing it. Not in a looooooong time. But my mother insisted in me cutting the hair, so I just kept trying sweeping her off the topic everytime she's going to say something about that. And about the stomachache I always suffer, I kinda get the point of asking the doctor. I mean, the real doctor. Not the doctor in the acupuncture clinic. But well, I still haven't done that. I haven't seen a doctor for a long time, and I wish I don't have too. The doctor should be a woman, anyway.

Got to get going now, or my mom gonna cut the internet off. Off to study (hope so), buh-bye!

Changing

Don't know what to post here. I have some other stories haven't been told, but well, I don't really want to. hehe. So I ended up make changes here and there to this blog. I changed the banner and also the layout.

Feel free to look around, be seeing ya!

7 Reasons Why I Hate Going Out With Mom

1. She forces me to go out despite whatever condition I'm being in.

2. She enters every shops. I mean, each. Even the electrical devices booth while we are actually looking for some clothes.

3. She says, "Let's take a look at other places, this one ain't so good." The next second, she gets back to that very shop.

4. I have an obviously different taste with her, so it does take my patience in buying something when she's around. I mean, how could I take, say, a piece of clothes I really like when my Mom said that it's awfully bad?

5. She keeps doing the job during the day out. We can do multitasks, yes, but not when you're going out with family. You could simply stayed at home. Or office.

6. And the time problem again. It takes here more than half an hour to decide buying an item.

7. She always critisizes the way I'm wearing my outfits. Just please. I'm wearing clothes not for your enjoyment.

...but anyway, I do love going out with my Mom. For some other reasons.

The Swinging Balloons

Made some changes to the banner and the blog's title. I welcome you to The Swinging Balloons: take your balloon and play the swing, because it's life, it's happiness.

Wordy

It really is no matter for me
to keep repeating words you'd like to hear
If you feel comfortable with words
then I'll be able to say billion words
I do hate doing something useless
but if you like it, it doesn't sound that pointless



RLA,
one time back then in 10th grade

Missing Link

Two days before the holy fasting month! I finally finish paying the fasting debts after all. So I just wanna say, happy fasting!

The links of my fellow bloggers are missiiiing -___- Sorry for that folks, I'm going to re-link them all again, but I need time haha

Random

Sorry for not posting for a long time. This writer's block thingy keeps me from posting, I kept typing several sentences and kept clicking the "new post" button but I never get satisfied enough to click the "publish post".

Catching up with myself, I'm strengthening myself up. Literally. I'm gonna fight against the very bad stomachache (okay, endometriosis) I always feel during my period. I used to not doing anything (even eating), but from now on I'm trying not to think about it too much. I mean, I'm a third grader and soon I'll be having tests. What if I got sick during the national exam? Yeah, I got to force my body to endure the pain.

It's been a month in the third grade and I feel...... really exhausted. I'm not ready for the so-called studying hard. It's so not me. And I'm still confused about the major I want to take.... Mom and everyone in my family want me to be a doctor, and I do feel like it, but I don't know why, I just can't get my heart to it. Which prevents me from being highly-motivated whatsoever. I'm only motivated to continue my study anywhere far away from that creature my Mom gave birth before me. haha

Uh my fingers are itching to type this part. Guess what? Today is August 17th! It's the independence day of my beloved nation and also the day my boyfriend turns 17. ehem. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, have a nice day!

X-E, XI-F, XII-G

The holiday is overrrrrrr. I don't know how to fully express that I hate it. I hate leaving my bed earlier starting from tomorrow. And for today, my last day before school, I have nothing to do to satisfy a bit of my holiday fever. Gosh, if only today never ends!

Oh the classes I mention at the title of this post are my classes during the three years of my senior high. Pretty cool, right? haha sorry for the boring post anyway. I do bored.
Praying for a fantastic third year, be seeing you later!

The Lost of The Monsters

Bangun pagi hari ini dan menyadari ada yang hilang......... Nggak ada kartun anak-anak yang menghiasi layar kaca. Nggak ada celotehan dan bunyi langkah kaki anak-anak yang berlarian mengitari ruangan. Semuanya jadi terlalu.........sepi. wahaha. This was all because the three adorable monsters are having their holiday in my aunt's home far away there in Bogor. Without those three monsters, it feels like the speaker of my house is being turned off. I gotta admit this was a big loss and made me sense a little bit of, well maybe not little, missing.

So, maybe this is the time. Lass and lads, I'm proudly introduced...

The three monsters.

left to right: Faiz, Mili, Azka

Let me describe from the oldest to the youngest.

1. Afla Azka Alia (Azka)

As you can see at the picture, she's the one with a bit slanted eyes and straight brownish hair. The picture doesn't tell that she has rabbit-like front teeth. Her bad habit, sucking her thumbs, caused this. In her playing with her younger siblings, she acted as their boss, sometimes sounded too old for her age. Oh and she had some experiences with the doctors' needles. These needles I'm talking about are the real needles, you know, not for injection but for sewing the skin, or scalp. She got her head and also the upper side of her left eye bleed when she was little. At first I dislike her born, from the so-called envy feeling since I was no longer the youngest. But that feeling gradually disappeared, fortunately haha.

Unlike me, she has some gifts at drawing. For an almost nine-years-old kid, which she will be on July 23rd, she had her way with all sorts of drawing tools,

from coloured pencils to acrylic paint. She had drawn on canvas too. I'm totally beated. Shapes and colours are so not me, after all.

2. Faiz Faruqi Fadhillah (Faiz)

I'm not wrong if I said this guy is the most monstrous of the three. He was the main source of all noises in our home. Turned to 7 years old last June 6th, he had grown far above his average friends. His hands are as big as mine! His punches and kicks do hurt. He has bad tempered and so he was easily annoyed buy anything. Mom still considering of letting him to a karate class or sort of. Just beware.

3. Kamilia Silmi Fariha (Mili)

The youngest of the three, and my favorite. I know it was unfair to treat one of your younger siblings differently, but it can't be helped. She's the kindest, and the most frail. She's being bullied sometimes by the other two haha but everytime she's going to buy things, she spends more for her elder brother and sister than for herself. She inherited my mother's kindness perfectly.

Back then when she was still few weeks old, an accident happen in my house. An enormous bang occured in my kitchen, happened from the leakage of the gas, while she was sleeping in a room right next to the kitchen. The bang had even flown the airconditioner, it was a miracle it didn't hit her. She slept right under the air conditioner. From then on, her motoric growth slowed down. She didn't talk or move much. We brought her to a therapist, and thanks to her, here we gifted with a chatty girl here.

isn't she adorable? :P

now I'm going to enjoy the rare peace and quiet,

be seeing you soon!

The Red Liquid

I'm having too much time lately that I'm gonna post other chains of words here. what am I gonna type here anyway? Let's see, hmm, I'm going to talk about this red thing we carry everywhere, this amazingly constructed liquid which was always on its move.

I googled it then, to knew more about this red liquid called blood. And I found these facts:

- Two million red blood cells die every second. And they were about to be reproduced. See, two million isn't few.

- Seven percent of humans body weight is made up of blood. The blood weighs more than even the brain, our central control of activities! Our brain only made up two percent of our body weight anyway.

- Each day more than 300 gallons of recycled blood are pumped through the kidneys. No wonder we need more than 8 cups of water a day. Okay people, if you love your kidneys and you don't want your blood to be dialised by machine, drink mineral water in an adequate amount.

- By donating one pint of blood, four lives can be saved. Okay I don't know how could a pint of blood save four people in a row, but this was what the scientists had said, so, in much respect, I believe this fact. And uh anyway donating blood is healthy for the donor himself. So why hesitate? Donate your blood pals.

- Someone needs blood every two seconds. Okay, read this sentence, it will take about 5 seconds. While you're reading, two people or more need blood.

- A woman has approximately 4.5 liters of blood, while men have 5.6 liters. Maybe this is one of the reasons why us women always get their moods upside down while having our period. We got less amount of blood than men, but why us spill them like downpour, not men?

- Your blood takes a really long trip through your body. If you could streched out all of a human's blood vessels, they would be about 60,000 miles long. That's enough to go around the world twice. And I've never been around the world for even once!

- A newborn baby has about one cup of blood in his body. Is that the reason newborn babies looked so pale and frail?

- Donating blood only takes an hour of your time then you can prolong other people's lifespan.

- There is no substitute for human blood. So don't ever spill your blood unless necessary. Our blood is really precious.

I can't imagine how could I live if I have no blood, can you?

Rally

Another finally, after a long and seemed-forever 10 days, I met my boyfriend at the eleventh day from out last meeting, that was yesterday. I'd been missing him sooooo much I felt like pinching his cheek til it goes red hahaha. And so, we--or me myself, actually-- decided to watch movies in a day. Well all we watched were just Inkheart and Ice Age 3: Dawn of the Dinosaurs.

Firstly, Inkheart.

The string that pulls me into this film is that I've read the novel, I'd mentioned it in my previous post. Unluckily, I lost my interest to this film since it was well, boring. Maybe it's because I'd read the novel before so I knew the exact story which was shortened and manipulated there, from hundreds of pages into a series of moving pictures that lasted for about 1 hour and 50 minutes. And the sound effect isn't good. It's bad, honestly.

Overall, this movie scores 3 out of 10.

Next, Ice Age 3: Dawn of the Dinosaurs.

Just like all sequel of Ice Age, this one is hilarious, and ridiculous, I should say. While Manny and Elly are going to have their baby--Manny became a freak father-going-to-be who ran through hills and valley everytime Elly said the baby's moving, Diego keeps thinking that he doesn't fit anymore in that friendly environment, thinking that it kills his natural instinct of hunting preys and sort of. He decided to leave. On the other hand, Sid the Sloth accidentally fell into a hole in the ice and found three eggs, which were, obviously, Dinosaur's eggs. He kept them instead of leave them there, disobeying Manny's advice. Things turned out upside down there, an angry Dinosaur raged out of the hole searching for her eggs which had turned into three baby dinosaurs. The three babies had believed that Sid was their Mom, and so the Momma Dinosaur bring all the four back into her nest under the ice, in the area where dinosaurs still exist. From here on, Diego (joined the team back from seeing Sid helpless), Manny, the pregnant Elly, the possum twins went under the ice, searching for Sid. New characters here were Buck, a weasel which acted as the rescue team's guide, and Rudy, the evil dino, which was their most dangerous enemy.

This film ranks 9 of 10. Go watch this film folks!

And I'm going to tell one stupid thing I did experience yesterday. I fell asleep while my boyfriend was riding me home on his motorcycle. Am I not stupid? I might fall off or something! Thank God I stayed alive and still.

Oh quick update, I changed a bit of my blog template. I didn't say I like it, I just chose colors randomly out of boredom that I barely notice.

okay, that's all for now. See ya!

Finally

Long time no see folks, sorry for not updating. The first thing I wanna say is, I'm finally hoooooooome!

These days that had been passed were all exhausting. I got my body worked exceed its limit since 27th of June til yesterday, July the fifth. I was spending my holiday, and it's extremely tiring.

I went to Singapore from June 27th until July 1st. Mom transformed immediately to a monstrous shopping bug there and I ended up as a porter. Thank people who had invented trolley, I could avoid breaking my arms. We had just spent the first day there when all of a sudden my Mom suggested to go to Malaysia, by train. I refused at first but she said that she had some business to do there so I had no choice. The journey was so long and tiring and killing my sense of living. The journey (back and forth) spent a total 16 hours. We only spent a day there, so could you imagine how tiring it was?

We spent the rest days in Singapore. I was trying my best to keep myself healthy since I still have loads to do as soon as I got home, preparing myself for the Puapala special occasion, Diklat, which was dated 2-5 of July. Our return plane to Jakarta supposed to arrive at the airport at July 1st, 9.30 p.m, but turned out to arrive an hour later. Shitty, I haven't packed my backpack yet and I needed sleep badly but I couldn't. It ruined my whole plan. I got home at 1 a.m. Then I pack my things as fast as I could, since I had to meet my friends at half five (although I got dispensation, to meet them at 7, which I did haha).

The things that happened between 2-5 of July were the story I can't tell well, since I have this short term memory haha to put it short, the days there were definitely able to make me unable to wake.

That's all for now, ciaoo

Needles

Since three months ago, the stomachache I usually feel during the first day(s) of my period is sooooooo torturing. Since then, my Mom forced me to make friends with um........ needles. I was forced to go to the acupuncture clinic, routinely. It was not good, really. I just don't get its function until now. The pain I felt growing even more frustrating. I can't eat even if I'm so badly starving. If I eat, I will puke in no longer than 5 minutes after that.

So in brief, the acupuncture thingy doesn't work. I don't know for sure though, my Mom said that in need time(s) but I just can't stand it Mom, it has to show me a sign of succes in healing me unless I won't do it again.

Selanjutnya gue akan menggunakan bahasa indonesia. haha
Jadi, setelah akupunktur, ibunda nampaknya tidak jera dan menyodorkan pengobatan yang setipe dengan akupunktur kepada saya. Pengobatan ini, yang menurut saya dapat dikategorikan sebagai penyiksaan, memang lebih ekstrim daripada akupunktur itu. Penyiksaan ini disebut bekam. Metode penyiksaan ini adalah dengan membuka pori2 daerah tertentu di tubuh dan mengeluarkan darah kotor (yang tidak mengandung oksigen) dari pori2 tubuh tersebut. Dengan penyiksaan ini, punggung saya sukses berubah menjadi saringan. Periiiiiiiiiih bgt. Ya, namanya juga luka. Mengingat buruknya diagnosa penyakit yg diberikan dokter kepada saya, saya hanya bisa pasrah mengikuti segala prosedur pelancaran darah dan hormon sebagaimana disebutkan oleh si mbak.

Hasilnya? Sekarang, mandipun sudah sulit untuk saya.

In certain way

"What doesn't kill you will make you stronger"
That quote is really really right. I experienced it myself. About a week ago I was given a problem, which drown me to the very bottom of my life, since I never stand a family problem. My own big brother got my nerves. I'll just say that not prioritating your family is a very big mistake.

Last night I went to Santi's home, she's a bestfriend of mine. I said to my Mom that I'm going to learn chemistry there, so she allowed me to--although she didn't believe me at first and decided to drive me there. Well actually I just want to take my PDL (Pakaian Dinas Lapangan), but since there'll be my boyfriend too, I decided to stay longer hahaha

Before last night I really lost my grip of myself, eventhough I didn't feel sad or gloomy anymore, sometimes I just felt this unease feeling swirling in my stomach. But then in Santi's house I got that feeling off me. I told her everything that bothers me and she acted percisely like I want her to. We spend minutes cursing my older sibling--I bet his ears got itch. I didn't care about the number of sins I'll be having from cursing someone older behind his back, it's worth it. I feel like I had screamed my mind out. We stopped talking when Edwin came though, but that didn't matter. I had finished cursing every single thing about my brother hahaha.

That makes me believe that every human, not just me, have enough strength to endure every pain, have enough ability to solve every problem, have enough joy to ease the sadness, if only they believed. Cause God loves us, in certain way.

Scores Updates

At last, the school exams had ended! Oh sorry for the late post, I really intend to update this blog of mine but I'm lacking of idea of what to write recently--I kept deleting words I had typed since they didn't really describe what I want to tell.

I should thank God of giving me quite a luck in doing the exams, my scores dazzled me. Although they aren't so good, but they're far above my expectations. Some of the scores haven't been told yet. So far only Biology who turns me down. Here is the list of my scores:

1. Matematika
estimasi nilai: 76.67
nilai: 90
komentar: THANK GOD. IT'S A MIRACLE.

2. Pkn
estimasi nilai: 80
nilai: (nggak remed)
komentar: nilainya nggak dikasih tau, cuma ada keterangan nggak remed aja. Alhamdulillah deh.

3. Agama
estimasi nilai: 70
nilai: (nggak remed)
komentar: Alhamdulillaaaaaaaaah

4. Kimia
estimasi nilai: 70
nilai: 84
komentar: speechless. way too good for me.

5. Bahasa Indonesia
estimasi nilai: remed
nilai: (via sms dari devina) tidak remed
komentar: "sumpah demi apa dev gue ga remed bindo?"

6. TIK
estimasi nilai: pasti nggak remed, gampang bgt
nilai: 91
komentar: biasa aja sih. tapi tetep bersyukur hahaha.

7. Seni
estimasi nilai: 75
nilai: (belom dikasih tau)
komentar: semoga gambar minimalis itu masih bisa dikasih nilai 75 sama Pak Udi.

8. Fisika
estimasi nilai: 60
nilai: (belom dikasih tau)
komentar: semoga nggak remed. tapi nggak mungkin deh kayaknya hahaha

9. Penjasorkes
estimasi nilai: 70
nilai: 72
komentar: entah remed apa nggak, yang penting bayar 50 ribu setahun hahaha

10. Biologi
estimasi nilai: 50
nilai: (remed)
komentar: katanya sih mau dikumulasiin sama nilai yang dulu-dulu, semoga aja jadi nggak usah remed amin

11. Jerman
estimasi nilai: 90
nilai: 92
komentar: hamdalah

12. Sejarah
estimasi nilai: 50 deh
nilai: (belom dikasih tau)
komentar: soalnya nggak sesuai sama bahan yang dikasih -_________-

13. Bahasa Inggris
estimasi nilai: 80 keatas
nilai: (belom dikasih tau)
komentar: semoga estimasi ini nggak terlalu tinggi.

Stop Crying Your Heart Out

Hold up
Hold on
Don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone

May your smile shine on
Don't be scared
Your destiny may keep you warm

Cause all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Get up (get up)
Come on (come on)
Why're you scared? (I'm not scared)
You'll never change
What's been and gone

Cause all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Cause all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

We're all of us stars
We're fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see us some day
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out

Oasis - Stop Crying Your Heart Out

The Sweet Phone Call

I really really want to erase yesterday from the calendar of my life, God was letting that horrible thing happened to me and I'd lost much of my strength and patience so.............well, skip that part. But I made it through, helped by this special sweet guy of mine God had created. He called me right away and as soon as I heard his voice I lost my control on my lachrymal gland.

It was around 11 p.m. And he accompanied me -by phone- until I got a grip on myself, it had past 2 a.m. I spent more time silent though, forgive me for that please. The call made me feel a kind of speechless thingy but I didn't want to end it. We played truth or truth, and also did a kind of nostalgic conversation, retrieving everything we'd gone through until this very time. It pleased me. Much. How could I thank you?



p.s. I love you. I really really do.

Life, Love and Friendship

Life ends when you stop Dreaming,
Hope ends when you stop Believing,
Love ends when you stop Caring,
And Friendship ends when you stop Sharing.

It's not me who made those words, and I don't focus on anything specific while copying those statements here. I'm not wise nor poetic, and I admit I did mistakes so many times. All I wanna say is please say what you need to say, unless you want people misunderstand you.

Universe

The universe always amazes me, makes me feel so tiny, little, incapable of doing anything, compared to the Creator of this universe I'm living in, God. I'm not going to talk about religion here, it's just I have just realized that I had missed so many things, and I did many things quite ungrateful.

Compared to the big big universe, humans are just... small. The world would still rolling no matter which person died, however important that person was to the world. Take the example Thomas A. Edison, the person who brings light to people's nights, he had invented a great thing, brought great impact to the world, but when he died, people might feel blue for times but then, it's it. World keeps rolling.

Lately I feel the night sometimes offer me many miraculous things to discover.. I tend to wake up in the middle of the night or at an early dawn, see the sky (which was not bright, most covered with the polution), and then I wondered, where was the end of that sky? Would it be some kind of ceiling, so when we somehow climb and climb the sky we could barely touch it? Then if it were ceiling, would it still be a roof at the upper side of it? And if there were roof, wouldn't it mean there were still another sky upon it?

It's confusing but still, it's amazing. I wonder what could we find at the end of the sky. Studying the universe is much more difficult than studying another thing, microbe or virus for example. I'm not saying that studying those things are easy, but just grasp this point of view. When we are studying something, we should take a look at the outer first, then we try to understand what's inside, right? But trying to understand the universe is different. We are inside the universe, so we learn it from the inside first, then we try to take a peek out of it. It's harder, right? It's like ant trying to learn human's life.

The planets, the galaxies, the stars, the comet, the moon, the sun. They are what we know so far and there are still lots to discover but just the fact that they truly exist has amazed me, to much extent.

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Sebenernya post ini adalah post yang nggak penting, gue lagi browsing dan iseng2 buka segala macem (disaat2 gue seharusnya mengerjakan tugas fisika dari mamsus) sampai kembali mengklik pilihan view blog dan melihat blog gue sendiri. Ketika gue mengscroll sidebar nya, gue agak amaze melihat ini:

angkanya itu looooooh haha pas banget. anyway thanks for everyone who has viewed my blog, you guys rock hahaha :--D

Lazyyyyyyyyyyyy

Dooooooooooh. I have several tasks to be done but I don't really feel like doing any of them. I realize that I'm way too lazy, but still, I can't do anything about it.

The exams are coming closer, it is going to be held right a week from now, but I've done nothing to overcome the questions. Are there any ways to cure laziness? But then, come to think of it, I know that it was just between your mind and body, whether they want to get rid of things of not. I guess my body still doesn't want to move an inch from this warm and comfortable bed of mine. Or it's just my will that lack of strength. Oh dilligent people out there, bring me to that clear path of yours, ...please.

Hatred

I really hate to say this, but dear big brother, I really hate you.

I know that blood is thicker than water, but whatever, you've dried all my patience. I hate it when you leave home, but I dislike it either when you stay. Why, because all you do is make a mess, not only in the house's rooms or wherever, but also in my very mind, and soul. You've broken all my imagination of a helping and protecting brother. Worst, I can't even see you as my brother. Anymore.

Oh God please forgive me.

Built to Last

I've looked for love in stranger places,
but never found someone like you.
Someone whose smile makes me feel I've been holding back,
and now there's nothing I can't do.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

All of our friends saw from the start.
So why didn't we believe it too?
Whoa yeah, now look where we are.
You're in my heart now.
And there's no escaping it for you.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

Walking on the hills that night with those fireworks and candlelight
You and I were made to get love right

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

'Cause you are the sun in my universe,
considered the best when we've felt the worst
and most of all it's built to last.

Built to Last - Melee

Bigger Problem?

I really hate when people are saying, "You have no idea of what I'm suffering, my problem is bigger than yours."

Honestly, I started thinking about that when a very best friend of mine told me a story, and made my eyes open to this fact. I can't agree more. Called her A. She has always seem strong, laughs here and there, throws jokes around, makes everyone loves her. She is really really great since she never shows any signal of having problems--until she told me of them. Then it's time for her to love her only one, but then it turns out to be that person she loves prefer another girl with bigger problem.

I really want to talk to that guy about this, that you can never tell someone's problem is bigger than the others. It is relative. I mean, just see this mere fact, there is a person who doesn't care how bad is his scores but then there is another person who always feels crazy about it, maybe because this person's parents always make a fuss of it.

Oh and everyone knows this quote, right? that God doesn't give you a problem that you can't solve. See? Each problem designed for each person has specific difficulty according to the person. It's just stupid to say that a person's problem is so tiny, little or unimportant.

Just end your big show, man. You're not the superhero who knows which person has bigger problem for you to help her.

scribdddddd

At the last day of my holiday (which was yesterday), I went nowhere and did nothing interesting... but that was before I opened blogs, and read even to the comment page. Then I found this site to download books, you could click here.
You should subscribe on that site before you could download the books.
To me, that site feels like, well maybe just a bit like..........heaven. I download 18 novels right away and still craving for more hahaha.
The 18 novels are:
- Midnight Sun by Stephenie Meyer
- Magyk by Septimus Heap
- Flyte by Septimus Heap
- Princess Diaries series (only 4 of them) by Meg Cabot
- Size 12 is Not Fat by Meg Cabot -- unfortunately I can't find the other book: Size 14 is not Fat Either
- Chronicles of Narnia series (the whole 7) by C.S. Lewis
- The Tales of Beedle the Bard by J.K. Rowling
- Breakfast at Tiffanys by Truman Capote
- Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom

ooooooh I really really love that site!

11 May 2009

The day is fun. Oh, it's more than just fun actually. It's wonderful. For me, at least.
At the morning, I did my Puapala thingy, meeting the judges and get the clearance of the payment and whatsoever, and then I went to Plaza Semanggi right in the middle of the pouring rain (which makes me love this day more) to meet my lover haha. I prefer using the transjakarta bus to using taxi, but I didn't bring my umbrella so I forcefully took the taxi instead.
I got there much sooner than him, but I really didn't mind that, I'm accompanied by the books before he came haha.
Actually the day was simple, nothing too wonderful, just ate and watched a film and walked around together, but it's him that makes everything seems shimmering. Lebaaaaaaaay hahahaha but I really thank God, and Edwin, to gave this day for me.

5

It's for the fifth month, and for my very dear, whose name starts with the fifth letter of the alphabet.
It's a bad drawing, I know haha. Anyway, happy fifth month dear ;-)

flat

It's holiday, but I just feel...... flat. I don't feel like posting something though. I'm just so bored with this home alone thingy.

50 First Reactions

blogwalking and got this from Nunu's blog.

This is called 50 FIRST REACTIONS... Type what comes to your mind FIRST whenever you hear these 50 words. Don't think and don't go back and change. Doesn't matter how random just type it! Re-post it for all of your friends.


1. Beer: sin
2. Food: cake
3. Relationship: edwin
4. Crush: junior high
5. Power Rangers: red
6. Life: tiring
7. The President: SBY
8. Yummy: delicious?
9. Car: kind of vehicle men made
10. Movie: cinema
11. Halloween: jack o' lantern
12. Sex: adult things
13. Religion: islam
14. Hate: tasks. oh and annoying people
15. Fear: bee. and corn haha
16. Marriage: bride and groom
17. Blondes: hair
18. Slippers: sandals
19. Shoes: sneakers
20. Asians: fair complexion?
21. Pastime: childhood
22. One night stand: euh
23. My cell phone: need to get a new one
24. Smoke: a big no
25. Fantasy: dragon! (I want to have one, or be friend with one to be able to ride on his back haha)
27. High school Life: tiring, but well exciting
28. Pyjamas: sleep
29. Stars: yellow - coldplay
30. Center: in the middle?
31. Alcohol: drink
32. The word LOVE: indescribable
33. Friends: mates
34. Money: I need much of it, asap
35. Heartache: ignored
36. Time: need more than 24 hours a day
37. Divorce: celebrities
38. Dogs: not my future pet
39. Undies: novels!
40. Parents: they're going somewhere
41. Babies: wishing to have twins one day
42. Ex: past
43. Song: music
44. Color: green
45. Weddings: sacred
46. Pizza: Deluxe Cheese. at Pizza Hut haha
47. Hangout: spazierengehen (ha)
48. Rest: think nothing
49. Goal : aim?
50. Inspiration: mom's hair

Recently

Ooooooh I really really into my novels these days (although I am disturbed by the tests teacher given me. I bought two novels recently, one titled "Kau Memanggilku Malaikat", and I can't say more than greaaaaaaaaaaat. It is great, I love the way Mr Arswendo show me an unusual point of view, an angel's mind. It is really worth buying, and it's not expensive, only 37 thousand rupiahs. Cheap, right?

The other novel I bought is another novel by Cornelia Funke, Drachenreiter (baca: drahenraiter) -- Penunggang Naga. I haven't finish reading it yet, it's a fantasy one, I buy it to spill some ice to my brain and relieve my nerves of getting stress.

And oh talking about stress, I don't know what happen to me but my hair just keeps falling and falling! I'm so afraid of getting bald, really. I'm not taking it too much, but it really is that bad. If you touch the upper part of my head, you'll only get a touch of thin hair, you may even touch my scalp. Oh I need to get my hair healthy again, somebody help meeeeeeeee

I may not forget, but I forgive. Because the important point is you, not me. And it is about today, not yesterday. Even though nothing lasts forever, I have my believe that it's great to be together

Missing

I MISS YOU

F

Hari ini sangat bukan hari saya. Bisa dibilang sangat menyebalkan. Bagian terburuk dari hari ini adalah perjalanan pulang saya dari sekolah. Saya biasa menggunakan bis, tapi karena sakit perut yang tiba-tiba menghadang saya lebih memilih sarana transportasi lain yang bisa sampai pas depan rumah saya, bajaj atau taksi misalnya.

Karena ingin berhemat, saya lebih memilih menggunakan opsi pertama. Bajaj pertama tidak setuju dengan harga yang saya inginkan dan karena saya tidak memaksa, saya membiarkan bajaj itu berlalu. Bajaj kedua awalnya tidak setuju, dan saya tidak memaksa, tapi akhirnya si tukang bajaj mau mengantar saya dengan tawaran harga yang saya berikan.

Belum sampai lima belas menit saya menumpang kendaraan itu, si tukang bajaj terus bertanya dimana sih rumah saya, kayak saya tadi nggak ngejelasin aja. Cara menyetir si tukang bajaj semakin parah. Si abang dengan sengaja memilih jalan berlubang, membuat duduk menjadi sakit. Akhirnya saya menyuruh abang itu berhenti karena dia ngedumel terus. Katanya, saya nggak bilang alamatnya sampai daerah itu. Padahal rumah saya masih lebih kesanaan lagi dan saya sudah menjelaskan itu. Saya turun, bayar. Si abang masih ngoceh, katanya saya ngeboongin orang tua, blablabla. Ingin rasanya nyari batu buat nimpuk si abang.

Akhirnya, tidak tertarik mencari sarana transportasi lain, saya melanjutkan dengan sarana transportasi paling alami, sehat dan tidak menimbulkan polusi, jalan kaki. Saya pikir dekat, ternyata meski sudah cepat-cepat berjalan, saya baru menginjak lantai rumah sekitar 20 menit kemudian.

Hikmah: olahraga sore, semoga berat badan bisa turun -_______-

AAAAARGH

I NEED MORE HOLIDAAAAAAAAAAAAY

Personality Disorder

I got the personality disorder test while blogwalking, and the result is that I am high at histrionic and narcissistic. I don't find it quite right, though you could get your own results here

100 Truths

001. Real name ? Rifda Luthfi Afina
002. Like it ? Sure!
003. Nickname(s)? Rifda, Iriph, some even call me Rippi
004. Status ? taken
005. Zodiac sign ? The Archeeeeer
006. Male or female ? Female
007. Elementary ? SDN Kenari 07 wahaha
008. Middle School ? SMPN 216 Jkt
009. High School ? SMA N 8 Jkt
010. Hair color ? it supposed to be black, but the sun has burned it, so..
011. Long or short ? not too long nor too short
012. Eye color ? brownish
013. Weight ? don't know for sure
014. Height ? well maybe around 160cm
015. Righty or lefty ? righty
016. Loud or Quiet ? both
017. Sweats or Jeans ? Jeans!
018. Phone or Camera ? phone
019. Health freak ? not really
020. Piercings ? only on my ears
021. Do you have a crush on someone ? ya
022. Eat or Drink ? both
023. Purse or Backpack ? backpack! hahaha
024. Tattoos ? nope
025. Do You Like Yourself ? yess
026. Current worry ? homework, parents

THIS OR THAT:
027. Orange or Apple Juice ? apple
028. Night or Day ? night
029. Sun or Moon ? moon
030. TV or Internet ? Internet
031. PlayStation or XBox? PS
032. Kiss or Hug ? hug
033. Iguana or Turtle ? turtle! (I killed one, though)
034. Spider or Bee ? spider
035. Fall or Spring ? fall
036. Limewire or iTunes ? anyone
037. Soccer or Baseball ? Baseball

FIRSTS:
038. First surgery ? -
039. First piercing ? Ears
040. First best friend ? a girl named Meta, where are you now?
041. First Sport ? basketball
042. First award ? academic
043. First crush ? someone in elementary schoool hahahha
044. First pet ? kitten
045. First big vacation ? to mount Gede maybe haha
046. First big birthday ? forgot

CURRENTLY:
047. Eating ? nope
048. Drinking ? milk
049. I'm about to ? update my twitter status
050. Listening to ? nope
051. Singing ? Accidentally In Love - Counting Crows
052. Typing ? this post
053. Waiting for ? a message

YOUR FUTURE:
054. Want kids ? sure
055. When ? about 10 years later
056. Want to get married? of courseeee
057. When ? 8 or 9 years later
058. Where Do You Want To Live ? anywhere
059. Careers in mind ? doctor, columnist, translater, piano teacher hahaha
060. What Did You Want To Be When You Were Little ? piano teacher
061. Mellow Future Or Wild? just between them
062. Something You Would Never Try ? eat corn

WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL/BOY?
063. Lips or eyes ? eyes
064. Shorter or taller? taller
065. Romantic or spontaneous ? spontaneously romantic
066. Nice stomach or nice arms ? arms
067. Sensitive or loud? sensitive
068. Hook-up or relationship ? relationship
069. Trouble maker or hesitant ? troublemaker
070. Hugging or Kissing ? hugging
071. Tan Skinned or Light ? whatever, I don't really care about it actually
072. Dark or Light Hair ? daaark
073. Muscular or Normal ? normal

HAVE YOU EVER:
074. Lost glasses/contacts ? nope
075. Ran away from home ? noooo
076. Held a gun/knife for self defense ? no
077. Killed somebody ? no and never
078. Broken someone's heart ? umm, yes I guess haha
079. Been arrested ? no
080. Cried when someone died ? no
081. Kissed A Stranger ? no
082. Climbed Up A Tree ? maybe. I forgot
083. Liked A Friend As More Than A Friend ? yes haha

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
084. Yourself ? of course
085. Miracles ? well,life itself is a miracle
086. Love at first sight ? not really
087. Heaven ? Yes
088. Santa Claus ? no
089. Kiss on the first date ? no

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
090. Is there one person you want to be with right now ? yaa
091. Do You Like Someone ? yes
092. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life ? yeah
093. Do you believe in God ? sure

LASTS
094. Recieved/Sent Text Message ? edwin
095. Received Call ? edwin
096. Call Made ? edwin
097. Comment On MySpace ? don't have
098. Missed Call ? my mom
099. Person You Hung out With ? Puapala 35 dan caang 36
100. Post as 100 truths and tag : yang baca

Ice Skatiiiiing :--)

So far the holiday is really, really greaaaaat :--D

I spent quite a day with my boy and my friends (Niken, Binar and Avian) yesterday. We decided to meet at half eleven before we go. We went iceskating but the thing exhaust us the most wasn't the skating itself but our journey to go there, and to go back home. Since none of us drive car, we got to use the public transportation. Another problem, we didn't know which vehicle we should choose. The taxy is out of the question, the mall is so far far away and it would be so hell yeah expensive.
At last we took the transjakarta bus and almost get lost, but finally we GOT THERE AT 2 P.M. It really was tiring.

The skating itself is a real fun for me, since I'd never done that before. But I guess I'm pretty good at it, at least I didn't fall. But I really really envy some kids there who were able to skate in circle, loop and anything. I got to make my child (when I get one later on haha) able to do that. It was really beautiful.

Time passed, and we went home. I got home at eight and was really tired so I had fallen asleep at half ten.

Anyway I wake up at half three, and now is a quarter to four but I can't sleep again -__-

Under The Same Sky

Image: The Starry Night - Vincent Van Gogh

Facts that nobody's in your house but you and there's no single tone from your cellphone might make you feel alone, like what I experienced quite a while before. But then all of a sudden I remember you, and your smile. The next second, I feel my facial muscle moving or whatever, creating some curves in my mouth. I realize that wherever we are, we're still sleeping under the same sky :--)

Goes Wild

Yesterday, April 18 2009.

I started the day with quite bad feeling, waking up from such dream--or nightmare? Well, whatever. I had to go to Senayan yesterday, buat ngelatfis anak orang haha. And I was really really disappointed by those juniors. The number of people who came is only two third from the total number, and the ones that lasted til the very end of the occasion is only one third from the total number.

Anyhow, it ended right on 3 p.m. I was so not in the mood of going home, and was really hungry so I decided to have lunch somewhere before going home. So did most of my friends. At last, me, Niken, Binar and Taufan went together for lunch and me and Niken decided to go to Binar's home afterward.

In Binar's house we did silly conversations, like:
Binar (B): mungkin ga sih gue ada jerawat di kuping?
Iriph (I): mungkin deh kayaknya. kan bisa di punggung juga
B: aduh ini kuping gue kenapa ya sakit banget sedunia
I: lebay nih binar
B: beneraaaaaan nih coba lo pegang deh
I: eh kok aneh sih rasanya didalem gitu
B: tuh kaaaaaan aduh gimana nih kayak mau mati
Niken (N): apaan sih lo bin lebay banget
B: beneran keeeeeen ini sakit bgt parah coba lo pegang
N: (megang) waduh gawat bin
B: aaa tuh kan beneran kenapa nih kuping gue
I: jangan2 tumor bin
B: (melototin gue gitu deh)
N: iya bin kayaknya udah stadion 4 deh
N: aduh keceplosan
B: aa sumpah lo jahat semua sama gue parah
N: itu gara-gara lo salah masukin kali bin pas pake anting, jadi luka gitu
B: yaoloh masa sih gue gabisa pake anting ken
I: itu daging salah tumbuh kali bin
N: atau gigi?

........sometimes our brains know when we need to laugh. hahaha

Roller Coaster

It's my mood condition right now. Going up and down and twisting and circling, like a roller coaster. Sorry for all, I know I hurt many people today. Sorry for the boring post anyway.

I am 66% mentally ill

[ ] You have screamed at an inanimate object for 'hurting you.'
[ ] You have run into a glass/screen door.
[x] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle.
[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed, and then people gave you weird looks.
[x] You have run into a tree/bush.
[ ] You have been called a blonde.

subtotal: 3

[ ] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow.
[x] You just tried to lick your elbow.
[x] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star had the same melody.
[x] You just sang them to make sure.
[x] You have tripped on your own feet.
[ ] You have choked on your own spit.

subtotal: 7

[ ] You have seen the Matrix and still don't get it.
[ ] You type with three fingers or less.
[ ] You have accidentally caught something on fire.
[x] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose
[x] You have caught yourself drooling.

subtotal: 9

[x] You have fallen asleep in class.
[x] Sometimes you just stop thinking.
[x] Sometimes when you are telling a story you forget what you are talking about.
[ ] People often shake their heads and walk away from you
[ ] You are often told to use your 'inside voice'

subtotal: 12

[ ] You use your fingers to do simple math.
[x] You have eaten a bug accidentally
[x] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important.
[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it.
[x] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand/pocket the whole time.

subtotal: 16

[x] You have posted bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen if you don't.
[x] You break a lot of things.
[x] You tilt your head when you're confused.
[ ] You have fallen out of your chair before.
[x] When you're lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture on the ceiling.
[x] The word "um" is used frequently.
[ ] You don't know what "um" means.
[x] You say "what" and "huh" a lot.
[ ] You plan to use a calculator to multiply your score for this bulletin.

Subtotal: 22

Total: 22

NOW, take your total, and multiply it by 3
and re-post as: I am --% Mentally ill.

Gone Forever

Last Sunday, my grandfather--my grandmother's big brother--passed away. I'm lucky enough to have met him before he died, I paid him a visit (he's already placed in ICU) that morning.
When I got there, I sensed a spooky feeling, didn't know whether it is related or not. He passed away around 7 p.m, less than 12-hours after I met him.
My mom got this call from my grandma and she said nothing more than "Innalillahi," so I figured out what happened easily.
This fact got me thinking, that death is near, and is inevitable. And there's no chance to try to correct your mistakes when death has approached you. I don't think I'm ready to face the death. ....do you think so?

11 April 2009 part II

Another interesting thing for this date is that I'm going rafting!
Well it's my second time, but it still rocks me, almost to death.
I fell off the boat and rescued by the rescue team twice. The sun burned me to dark complexion right away but it's still fuuuuuuuuun!

11 April 2009 part I

Well since it was dated 11, it's me and my boyfriend's fourth month.
I just want you to know that I loooove you :-----)

After Today

No one is in my house me right now, so I'm just sitting in front of my laptop to feel a bit busy. I'm busy at the moment actually, texting and phoning my friends who haven't given me the money which should have been collected by tomorrow for our very own occasion, rafting.

I ever tasted this rafting thingy quite a year ago but I'm still looking forward to doing it other time(s), since it is really a lot of fun. I just can't wait for tomorrow!

Talking about tomorrow, it's our fourth month, right? I'm so sorry I can't go with you tomorrow.. Anyway, thanks for today Dear, I love you :---)

Holidaaaaaaaaaaay

(When you read this, that means I'm successfully typing this post from my cellphone)

I'm having a four-day-holiday! It's going to be fun, right, but I have these piling homeworks need to be done. But well, who cares anyway? :-p

Today is the second day of the holiday, and I'm planning to go somewhere with my someone but I haven't got any news from him recently so... yeah, we'll just see.

Yesterday I met my friends from Puapala. Actually we need to talk with a specific person I can't mention here about the riddiculous duty this person gave us. Social charity, with punishment(s). Weird, huh? But we didn't talk to her about it anyway, ended up eating together with her at Pizza Hut and talking none.
The 'meeting' ended sooner than I expected so me, Binar, Niken, Malik and Akbar went to Avian's house, to play. We swam and played the coin-searching game and I'm completely lost. The sky had turned dark when we finally decided to go home. I got scolded, but I didn't take it seriously. haha

Well that's all for now. I'm so tired typing all these letters. Happy holiday all!

XI IPA F

Kelas saya memenangkan kategori best interaksi(apa atraksi? gatau juga deh) dan meraih posisi ketiga pada kegiatan Bazaar Budaya Murid 8.

Congratulation XI IPA F, walaupun kondisi stand agak riskan dan penuh improvisasi disana dan disini, usaha kita ngga sia-sia haha lumayanlah juara 3 juga. WE DID IT!!!!!