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September 30, 2009

You and Yourself

It's been a long time since the last time I did this old habit of mine. The habit's gone since I happened to get my mind in doing something else.

Since ages, I always find it good to let my mind free, from every single other thing. And then, the mind will set its focus to the me myself. I usually spend it looking at the ceiling, or stars if I had the chance. And checking messages in inbox and sent items, just to grasp a scratch of how I response and what are the feedbacks. Or reading the old silly diaries, and sometimes adding other silly text there. And also going back and forth through my memory storage, reviewing everything that my senses had sensed, recalling everything that ever happened to me or the ones that had something to do with me.
It is to remember every step that had brought me to the place I'm standing right now. To remind me that the person I love deeply is my very self.

It is a great thing when you have a time for yourself, and I mean it really is only for you. It's a quality time that rarely occurs, which you are in the center of the other things, where you are the utmost concern. Oh it feels so nice letting your mind peacefully floating along with your imagination, and also smoothly delivering images behind your eyes that no one else can see.

Sometimes we feel this world rolls too fast, don't we? Since we were kids we used to think about us and us and us again, but we grew old and sometimes it's just hard to think only about us. There're lots of things stole the attention, and it's time to realize that in this life you can't just selfishly act based on your one and only will, because no one would like it when you talk only about you and yourself. World ask you to care first if you want to be taken care of. Therefore, your time is being sliced and sliced, leaving you only the slightest glimpse to catch yourself. So when you find the time, seize it.

Then just to share again. Sorry for being so selfishly talking about me ;p
Take care, people.

September 27, 2009

Things That Are Not Proper

Greetings. First of all, eid mubarak, people. Please do forgive my mistakes, and all the harsh words and everything in this blog that might not goes good through your senses. Yea I know it's soooo late but by the way. Better late than never, right?

I'd like to bow my head more and apologize if this writings of mine do nothing but bores you to death cause in my own case, I do bored. haha. Or are there ones that offense you so much? please forgive me for that too, sometimes my fingers type faster than my brain thinks. .....And sorry again for the excuses.

In this post, I intend to speak a certain thought, which in times has been swirling in my mind. Due to the rebellious age I'm in, I believe that this would be just a bull typing, so if you don't like it, I recommend you to just skip it.

You know, as a person get into other people, he creates new bonds, which should be taken care of. In any way that person willing to have. Some bonds requires more attention, and responsibilities. For example, you need to pay more attention to your family bond than to your friendship, although both are important to you. The responsibilities you have to bear are also different, whereas creating a family is much more complicated than meeting friends.

Family starts when a man and a woman promised to each other to be together sacredly, seriously, wholeheartedly. Hence, they are bound to the responsibility to take care and love each other. It is then by the will of God that this man and woman given tiny copy(ies) of them, their children. They are now parents, who now have another responsibility, to take care of their children. Even though the children might be troublesome, it's parents duty to pay attention to them, to be with them, to give them happiness to play with. To get this works, they need to work together.

So it is wrong to ignore each other. It is wrong to blame the children. It is wrong to lose trust on each other. It is wrong to say harsh thing, or worse, accuse each other. It is wrong to not listen to the children. It is wrong to let your emotion blew up. It is wrong to dominate the other person. It is wrong to put yourself above the other person, no matter how much 'happiness' you've brought home. It is wrong to not apologize. It is also wrong to ask for an apology, or moreover, beg for it. And it is an absolute mistake to drag everyone to feel guilty towards you --either direct or indirect--, or to make them, by your patience-destroying words, acknowledge your superiority.

You know parents, we admire you. From head to toe. We are your blood and your flesh, who can't exist without you. We did mistakes, yes, and we sorry for that. We know you've done great jobs, bringing the lights of the world home, and we deliberately grateful for that. Although we might not show... cause we thought our smile and laughter had told you. I don't know whether this would ring bad or what, but for God sake, you are grown-ups so please, can't you grasp the fact that the troubles come in this bond you create is the risk destined to you the second you agree to bear the bond?

...please, don't make us lose the affection towards you. we don't want it to be happening. and thanks for the money, if that's the matter.
and I'm not going to go against you or against the other.

...just want to share.

September 16, 2009

A Memory

Human's brain is the best computer ever exist. Name the most sophisticated computer people ever made, none has barely reach the same class as the brain. It has incredible space to save all events ever happen, to record everything ever seen, tasted, heard, touched whatsoever. It is the best storage to every thought, every memory.

It's a good thing that people could maintain their memories but then there are some memories that feel too troublesome, too hurting, unlikely to be remained. But you need to get what I'm gonna say next.

Although that memory isn't more than the one that offenses your heart, even it will always hurt your heart, and even for everyone the memory is so painful that it is best to get rid of it forever, you should never run away from it. If you're not running away and you keep on working, then one time you'll be able to appreciate the memory, and grateful that you still have it. It may be hard, but anyone can do it (not running away, I mean) if they believe they can. There is no memory that isn't valuable enough so it's going to be forgotten. God gives you a brain so you could remember, therefore there is no need for you to struggle trying to forget whatever painful memory you have. Believe me, every single memory is priceless.

I know I'm talking bull whatsoever, but that is clearly my own opinion. You could tell me yours, people. Be seeing you later!

September 15, 2009

A Chronology

Back then when you were just a little kid, everyone seems bigger, much stronger, capable of things you couldn't do. But this life was your greatest playground. Moreover, there was no game over, wasn't it? This was an endless game. You hop and jump and run all over the place, like this life is created definitely only for you. There were obstacles on your way, you stumbled and fell. Hence, you had your head face the ground, while the pain in your knee started to sting your eyes. You then were crying then people started to pay attention towards you. Lending their helping hands to get you quiet and still again, for everyone's composure. Among those hands, you noticed the pair of hands that feel just the best. They were the softest and the warmest, the ones that give you the easy feeling, that everything's gonna be just all right. So you danced your life out, thanking you have other shadows behind you that would always look at you, in case you fell of or something. The days were inevitably sweet. The nightmares were always being ease up by everyone's sweet calming words.

Then, you're growing up. You begin to notice things. You couldn't do reckless things no more. Everyone's counting on you to take care of yourself, since they have many more things they need to take care. Ah, the world starts to feel so lonely. The shadow following you is only your very own shadow, none other is accompanying. And then you wait. Oh, you find a friend. And here comes another one. Then comes other people willing to accompany you, this was the first time you experience friendship. You begin to smile again, you know that you're not alone.

Somehow you noticed that there is this certain someone among your friends whose existence feel just different to you. The one whose existence welcomes you to a decent new world you'd never dreamt of. The existence, that has much more meaning to you than other people around. It has something to do with your heartbeats, which, getting faster each time you sensed that person. Somewhere in your heart you wish that one person's shadow to follow you. To much extent, that person is the one you'd very like to be with. The wheel of fortune turns around and somehow, you and that person are being together. Lessons you learn this time? They are the sense of belonging, and the art of missing.

September 07, 2009

Updating

I should have been studying or doing my homeworks or something else than typing this, but anyhow, I need to let my fingers do something....at least on the keyboard.

So. Updates? Nothing interesting lately, just other sequences of motonous things. And oh finally I pay more attention to my very own body, after a long time of abandoning. Not really abandoning, though, but that was my mom opinion of the way I'm taking care of myself. So finally, I went to a beauty house or sort of and had the hair treatment which sucks up the money I'd prefer spend on loads of novels. And the doctor adviced me to cut my hair. To a short one. HA! I'm so not doing it. Not in a looooooong time. But my mother insisted in me cutting the hair, so I just kept trying sweeping her off the topic everytime she's going to say something about that. And about the stomachache I always suffer, I kinda get the point of asking the doctor. I mean, the real doctor. Not the doctor in the acupuncture clinic. But well, I still haven't done that. I haven't seen a doctor for a long time, and I wish I don't have too. The doctor should be a woman, anyway.

Got to get going now, or my mom gonna cut the internet off. Off to study (hope so), buh-bye!

September 05, 2009

Changing

Don't know what to post here. I have some other stories haven't been told, but well, I don't really want to. hehe. So I ended up make changes here and there to this blog. I changed the banner and also the layout.
Feel free to look around, be seeing ya!