This Morning

This morning, I had done my prayer, cleaned my room and tidied it up, swept the house, washed the dishes, cooked (although it was some mere plain fried eggs), helped my little sister took her bath and put on her uniforms, taken my own bath and done my breakfast, uploaded yesterday photos to facebook, and even posted something to this blog, finally :")

And I'm gonna meet my boyfriend soon.

I feel good, and alive, yes. Have a nice day.

you'd waste your time if you read

greetings.

the thing about today is that this is the last day of 2009. this post will be another piece of trash, but whatever, I just don't have any other thing to do. yes it's new year eve, but I'm stuck here with nothing to do. so let me just hurt your eyes with some pointless words.

and the thing about ending this year is, doesn't it feel sad? a bit, at least? 2009 to me is a whole 365 days full with enormous things, vary from the monstrous to the tiniest ones. to recall them one by one is not a thing normal human can do. I'm still normal at much points I suppose, so I won't recall them, not one by one.

just now I'm trying to acces my so-called memories of 2009, my brain millions of scenes I'd passed. honestly, some of them were really ridiculous, yet precious and meaningful. to many people my days would be really ordinary, but to me, they were really really important. priceless.

okay honestly i don't know what else should i be typing and i know this post has really no point but forgive me, i really need to do something before my head explode out of boredom. gonna kick some pillow. bye for now, wish you a happy new year!

Updating

I should have been studying or doing my homeworks or something else than typing this, but anyhow, I need to let my fingers do something....at least on the keyboard.

So. Updates? Nothing interesting lately, just other sequences of motonous things. And oh finally I pay more attention to my very own body, after a long time of abandoning. Not really abandoning, though, but that was my mom opinion of the way I'm taking care of myself. So finally, I went to a beauty house or sort of and had the hair treatment which sucks up the money I'd prefer spend on loads of novels. And the doctor adviced me to cut my hair. To a short one. HA! I'm so not doing it. Not in a looooooong time. But my mother insisted in me cutting the hair, so I just kept trying sweeping her off the topic everytime she's going to say something about that. And about the stomachache I always suffer, I kinda get the point of asking the doctor. I mean, the real doctor. Not the doctor in the acupuncture clinic. But well, I still haven't done that. I haven't seen a doctor for a long time, and I wish I don't have too. The doctor should be a woman, anyway.

Got to get going now, or my mom gonna cut the internet off. Off to study (hope so), buh-bye!

Missing Link

Two days before the holy fasting month! I finally finish paying the fasting debts after all. So I just wanna say, happy fasting!

The links of my fellow bloggers are missiiiing -___- Sorry for that folks, I'm going to re-link them all again, but I need time haha

Finally

Long time no see folks, sorry for not updating. The first thing I wanna say is, I'm finally hoooooooome!

These days that had been passed were all exhausting. I got my body worked exceed its limit since 27th of June til yesterday, July the fifth. I was spending my holiday, and it's extremely tiring.

I went to Singapore from June 27th until July 1st. Mom transformed immediately to a monstrous shopping bug there and I ended up as a porter. Thank people who had invented trolley, I could avoid breaking my arms. We had just spent the first day there when all of a sudden my Mom suggested to go to Malaysia, by train. I refused at first but she said that she had some business to do there so I had no choice. The journey was so long and tiring and killing my sense of living. The journey (back and forth) spent a total 16 hours. We only spent a day there, so could you imagine how tiring it was?

We spent the rest days in Singapore. I was trying my best to keep myself healthy since I still have loads to do as soon as I got home, preparing myself for the Puapala special occasion, Diklat, which was dated 2-5 of July. Our return plane to Jakarta supposed to arrive at the airport at July 1st, 9.30 p.m, but turned out to arrive an hour later. Shitty, I haven't packed my backpack yet and I needed sleep badly but I couldn't. It ruined my whole plan. I got home at 1 a.m. Then I pack my things as fast as I could, since I had to meet my friends at half five (although I got dispensation, to meet them at 7, which I did haha).

The things that happened between 2-5 of July were the story I can't tell well, since I have this short term memory haha to put it short, the days there were definitely able to make me unable to wake.

That's all for now, ciaoo

Needles

Since three months ago, the stomachache I usually feel during the first day(s) of my period is sooooooo torturing. Since then, my Mom forced me to make friends with um........ needles. I was forced to go to the acupuncture clinic, routinely. It was not good, really. I just don't get its function until now. The pain I felt growing even more frustrating. I can't eat even if I'm so badly starving. If I eat, I will puke in no longer than 5 minutes after that.

So in brief, the acupuncture thingy doesn't work. I don't know for sure though, my Mom said that in need time(s) but I just can't stand it Mom, it has to show me a sign of succes in healing me unless I won't do it again.

Selanjutnya gue akan menggunakan bahasa indonesia. haha
Jadi, setelah akupunktur, ibunda nampaknya tidak jera dan menyodorkan pengobatan yang setipe dengan akupunktur kepada saya. Pengobatan ini, yang menurut saya dapat dikategorikan sebagai penyiksaan, memang lebih ekstrim daripada akupunktur itu. Penyiksaan ini disebut bekam. Metode penyiksaan ini adalah dengan membuka pori2 daerah tertentu di tubuh dan mengeluarkan darah kotor (yang tidak mengandung oksigen) dari pori2 tubuh tersebut. Dengan penyiksaan ini, punggung saya sukses berubah menjadi saringan. Periiiiiiiiiih bgt. Ya, namanya juga luka. Mengingat buruknya diagnosa penyakit yg diberikan dokter kepada saya, saya hanya bisa pasrah mengikuti segala prosedur pelancaran darah dan hormon sebagaimana disebutkan oleh si mbak.

Hasilnya? Sekarang, mandipun sudah sulit untuk saya.

Scores Updates

At last, the school exams had ended! Oh sorry for the late post, I really intend to update this blog of mine but I'm lacking of idea of what to write recently--I kept deleting words I had typed since they didn't really describe what I want to tell.

I should thank God of giving me quite a luck in doing the exams, my scores dazzled me. Although they aren't so good, but they're far above my expectations. Some of the scores haven't been told yet. So far only Biology who turns me down. Here is the list of my scores:

1. Matematika
estimasi nilai: 76.67
nilai: 90
komentar: THANK GOD. IT'S A MIRACLE.

2. Pkn
estimasi nilai: 80
nilai: (nggak remed)
komentar: nilainya nggak dikasih tau, cuma ada keterangan nggak remed aja. Alhamdulillah deh.

3. Agama
estimasi nilai: 70
nilai: (nggak remed)
komentar: Alhamdulillaaaaaaaaah

4. Kimia
estimasi nilai: 70
nilai: 84
komentar: speechless. way too good for me.

5. Bahasa Indonesia
estimasi nilai: remed
nilai: (via sms dari devina) tidak remed
komentar: "sumpah demi apa dev gue ga remed bindo?"

6. TIK
estimasi nilai: pasti nggak remed, gampang bgt
nilai: 91
komentar: biasa aja sih. tapi tetep bersyukur hahaha.

7. Seni
estimasi nilai: 75
nilai: (belom dikasih tau)
komentar: semoga gambar minimalis itu masih bisa dikasih nilai 75 sama Pak Udi.

8. Fisika
estimasi nilai: 60
nilai: (belom dikasih tau)
komentar: semoga nggak remed. tapi nggak mungkin deh kayaknya hahaha

9. Penjasorkes
estimasi nilai: 70
nilai: 72
komentar: entah remed apa nggak, yang penting bayar 50 ribu setahun hahaha

10. Biologi
estimasi nilai: 50
nilai: (remed)
komentar: katanya sih mau dikumulasiin sama nilai yang dulu-dulu, semoga aja jadi nggak usah remed amin

11. Jerman
estimasi nilai: 90
nilai: 92
komentar: hamdalah

12. Sejarah
estimasi nilai: 50 deh
nilai: (belom dikasih tau)
komentar: soalnya nggak sesuai sama bahan yang dikasih -_________-

13. Bahasa Inggris
estimasi nilai: 80 keatas
nilai: (belom dikasih tau)
komentar: semoga estimasi ini nggak terlalu tinggi.

The Sweet Phone Call

I really really want to erase yesterday from the calendar of my life, God was letting that horrible thing happened to me and I'd lost much of my strength and patience so.............well, skip that part. But I made it through, helped by this special sweet guy of mine God had created. He called me right away and as soon as I heard his voice I lost my control on my lachrymal gland.

It was around 11 p.m. And he accompanied me -by phone- until I got a grip on myself, it had past 2 a.m. I spent more time silent though, forgive me for that please. The call made me feel a kind of speechless thingy but I didn't want to end it. We played truth or truth, and also did a kind of nostalgic conversation, retrieving everything we'd gone through until this very time. It pleased me. Much. How could I thank you?



p.s. I love you. I really really do.

scribdddddd

At the last day of my holiday (which was yesterday), I went nowhere and did nothing interesting... but that was before I opened blogs, and read even to the comment page. Then I found this site to download books, you could click here.
You should subscribe on that site before you could download the books.
To me, that site feels like, well maybe just a bit like..........heaven. I download 18 novels right away and still craving for more hahaha.
The 18 novels are:
- Midnight Sun by Stephenie Meyer
- Magyk by Septimus Heap
- Flyte by Septimus Heap
- Princess Diaries series (only 4 of them) by Meg Cabot
- Size 12 is Not Fat by Meg Cabot -- unfortunately I can't find the other book: Size 14 is not Fat Either
- Chronicles of Narnia series (the whole 7) by C.S. Lewis
- The Tales of Beedle the Bard by J.K. Rowling
- Breakfast at Tiffanys by Truman Capote
- Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom

ooooooh I really really love that site!

11 May 2009

The day is fun. Oh, it's more than just fun actually. It's wonderful. For me, at least.
At the morning, I did my Puapala thingy, meeting the judges and get the clearance of the payment and whatsoever, and then I went to Plaza Semanggi right in the middle of the pouring rain (which makes me love this day more) to meet my lover haha. I prefer using the transjakarta bus to using taxi, but I didn't bring my umbrella so I forcefully took the taxi instead.
I got there much sooner than him, but I really didn't mind that, I'm accompanied by the books before he came haha.
Actually the day was simple, nothing too wonderful, just ate and watched a film and walked around together, but it's him that makes everything seems shimmering. Lebaaaaaaaay hahahaha but I really thank God, and Edwin, to gave this day for me.

flat

It's holiday, but I just feel...... flat. I don't feel like posting something though. I'm just so bored with this home alone thingy.

Recently

Ooooooh I really really into my novels these days (although I am disturbed by the tests teacher given me. I bought two novels recently, one titled "Kau Memanggilku Malaikat", and I can't say more than greaaaaaaaaaaat. It is great, I love the way Mr Arswendo show me an unusual point of view, an angel's mind. It is really worth buying, and it's not expensive, only 37 thousand rupiahs. Cheap, right?

The other novel I bought is another novel by Cornelia Funke, Drachenreiter (baca: drahenraiter) -- Penunggang Naga. I haven't finish reading it yet, it's a fantasy one, I buy it to spill some ice to my brain and relieve my nerves of getting stress.

And oh talking about stress, I don't know what happen to me but my hair just keeps falling and falling! I'm so afraid of getting bald, really. I'm not taking it too much, but it really is that bad. If you touch the upper part of my head, you'll only get a touch of thin hair, you may even touch my scalp. Oh I need to get my hair healthy again, somebody help meeeeeeeee

F

Hari ini sangat bukan hari saya. Bisa dibilang sangat menyebalkan. Bagian terburuk dari hari ini adalah perjalanan pulang saya dari sekolah. Saya biasa menggunakan bis, tapi karena sakit perut yang tiba-tiba menghadang saya lebih memilih sarana transportasi lain yang bisa sampai pas depan rumah saya, bajaj atau taksi misalnya.

Karena ingin berhemat, saya lebih memilih menggunakan opsi pertama. Bajaj pertama tidak setuju dengan harga yang saya inginkan dan karena saya tidak memaksa, saya membiarkan bajaj itu berlalu. Bajaj kedua awalnya tidak setuju, dan saya tidak memaksa, tapi akhirnya si tukang bajaj mau mengantar saya dengan tawaran harga yang saya berikan.

Belum sampai lima belas menit saya menumpang kendaraan itu, si tukang bajaj terus bertanya dimana sih rumah saya, kayak saya tadi nggak ngejelasin aja. Cara menyetir si tukang bajaj semakin parah. Si abang dengan sengaja memilih jalan berlubang, membuat duduk menjadi sakit. Akhirnya saya menyuruh abang itu berhenti karena dia ngedumel terus. Katanya, saya nggak bilang alamatnya sampai daerah itu. Padahal rumah saya masih lebih kesanaan lagi dan saya sudah menjelaskan itu. Saya turun, bayar. Si abang masih ngoceh, katanya saya ngeboongin orang tua, blablabla. Ingin rasanya nyari batu buat nimpuk si abang.

Akhirnya, tidak tertarik mencari sarana transportasi lain, saya melanjutkan dengan sarana transportasi paling alami, sehat dan tidak menimbulkan polusi, jalan kaki. Saya pikir dekat, ternyata meski sudah cepat-cepat berjalan, saya baru menginjak lantai rumah sekitar 20 menit kemudian.

Hikmah: olahraga sore, semoga berat badan bisa turun -_______-

Ice Skatiiiiing :--)

So far the holiday is really, really greaaaaat :--D

I spent quite a day with my boy and my friends (Niken, Binar and Avian) yesterday. We decided to meet at half eleven before we go. We went iceskating but the thing exhaust us the most wasn't the skating itself but our journey to go there, and to go back home. Since none of us drive car, we got to use the public transportation. Another problem, we didn't know which vehicle we should choose. The taxy is out of the question, the mall is so far far away and it would be so hell yeah expensive.
At last we took the transjakarta bus and almost get lost, but finally we GOT THERE AT 2 P.M. It really was tiring.

The skating itself is a real fun for me, since I'd never done that before. But I guess I'm pretty good at it, at least I didn't fall. But I really really envy some kids there who were able to skate in circle, loop and anything. I got to make my child (when I get one later on haha) able to do that. It was really beautiful.

Time passed, and we went home. I got home at eight and was really tired so I had fallen asleep at half ten.

Anyway I wake up at half three, and now is a quarter to four but I can't sleep again -__-

Roller Coaster

It's my mood condition right now. Going up and down and twisting and circling, like a roller coaster. Sorry for all, I know I hurt many people today. Sorry for the boring post anyway.

Gone Forever

Last Sunday, my grandfather--my grandmother's big brother--passed away. I'm lucky enough to have met him before he died, I paid him a visit (he's already placed in ICU) that morning.
When I got there, I sensed a spooky feeling, didn't know whether it is related or not. He passed away around 7 p.m, less than 12-hours after I met him.
My mom got this call from my grandma and she said nothing more than "Innalillahi," so I figured out what happened easily.
This fact got me thinking, that death is near, and is inevitable. And there's no chance to try to correct your mistakes when death has approached you. I don't think I'm ready to face the death. ....do you think so?

11 April 2009 part II

Another interesting thing for this date is that I'm going rafting!
Well it's my second time, but it still rocks me, almost to death.
I fell off the boat and rescued by the rescue team twice. The sun burned me to dark complexion right away but it's still fuuuuuuuuun!

After Today

No one is in my house me right now, so I'm just sitting in front of my laptop to feel a bit busy. I'm busy at the moment actually, texting and phoning my friends who haven't given me the money which should have been collected by tomorrow for our very own occasion, rafting.

I ever tasted this rafting thingy quite a year ago but I'm still looking forward to doing it other time(s), since it is really a lot of fun. I just can't wait for tomorrow!

Talking about tomorrow, it's our fourth month, right? I'm so sorry I can't go with you tomorrow.. Anyway, thanks for today Dear, I love you :---)

Holidaaaaaaaaaaay

(When you read this, that means I'm successfully typing this post from my cellphone)

I'm having a four-day-holiday! It's going to be fun, right, but I have these piling homeworks need to be done. But well, who cares anyway? :-p

Today is the second day of the holiday, and I'm planning to go somewhere with my someone but I haven't got any news from him recently so... yeah, we'll just see.

Yesterday I met my friends from Puapala. Actually we need to talk with a specific person I can't mention here about the riddiculous duty this person gave us. Social charity, with punishment(s). Weird, huh? But we didn't talk to her about it anyway, ended up eating together with her at Pizza Hut and talking none.
The 'meeting' ended sooner than I expected so me, Binar, Niken, Malik and Akbar went to Avian's house, to play. We swam and played the coin-searching game and I'm completely lost. The sky had turned dark when we finally decided to go home. I got scolded, but I didn't take it seriously. haha

Well that's all for now. I'm so tired typing all these letters. Happy holiday all!

Dear Father and Mother

Dear Father, this post actually should have been posted 6 days ago.
Dear Mother, this post is also for you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, I LOVE YOU