Ten To One

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to People
1. "I'm living at that green apartment by my own now, feel free to visit!"
2. "I could help you but I just don't want to. Sorry."
3. "Hey I got 100 for Physics! What, you got 20? Work harder then."
4. "Your poses in photos are unexceptionally disgusting."
5. "That's your prob, not mine."
6. "I got my novel published, let me treat you. What would you like?"
7. "You're talking bullshit."
8. "I hate you."
9. "I just bought this car with my first salary. I still save some for you, Mom."
10. "I just want to see you, I may say nothing. Are you still willing to come? Oh that's great. Okay, see you."

Nine things about myself
1. I love multitasking.
2. I tend to forget clicking the send button after I finished typing the message.
3. I had not taken a bath consecutively for 4 days.
4. I hate corn, but I love popcorn.
5. I need a cup of tea every morning.
6. I don't mind going out by myself.
7. I love playing with words, especially the one that rhymes. Eventhough their meanings have nothing to do with me.
8. I want my first child to be a girl.
9. I got really pissed when I got my plan severed.

Eight ways to win my heart
1. Sing me my favourite song.
2. Keen on music or sport or other hobbies.
3. Give me surprises.
4. Find out things about me no one else knows.
5. Be expressive.
6. Love kids.
7. Got his family as his first priority, even above me.
8. Spontaneously decide random things when going out with me.

Seven things that cross my mind a lot:
1. The upcoming tests
2. My boyfriend
3. My bedroom-going-to-be
4. My health
5. Twitter and blogspot
6. Messages in my inbox and sent items. Don't know why.
7. Me.

Six things I do before I fall asleep
1. Salat al 'Isha.
2. Wash my face.
3. Listen to the best lullaby cd I've ever bought. Contains nature sounds like rain and waves and others.
4. Turn the lights off.
5. Pray and recite some parts of Quran soundlessly.
6. Close my eyes.

Five places I want to visit
1. London.
2. Japan.
3. The Leaning Tower.
4. Somewhere snowy.
5. My grandpa's grave.

Four things I'm wearing right now
1. Nearly white tee.
2. Red shorts.
3. Blanket.
4. Undies.

Three bands that I listen to often (Currently)
1. The Script.
2. Copeland.
3. Secondhand Serenade.

Two things I want to do before I die
1. Attend my youngest daughter's wedding.
2. Live in a house with my kind and loving husband.

One confession
1. I have no liking towards TV shows.

Copied from Nunu's blog.

Sunflower

"a sunflower will always gaze towards the sun with neither hate nor regret

it will continue to look up with a smile, even through strong wind and heavy rain

patiently bearing the pain, while waiting for the sun to shine once again

but the sunflower has never felt, or will it ever feel, any regret."

credit: www.lookthatflowers.com

The Rest of Your Life

-When Harry Met Sally

A Confession

I might be a hypocrite, to take the words I've said back. I might be so low, to shallow back all the things I've said and done. I might sound like a liar, said something at the first seconds then after that I said that I didn't mean it to be like that. I might be one asshole, judging here and there without thoroughly knowing. I might be stupid, to not hold on my own conscience. I might be the spoiled brat who seems to haven't been satisfied by anything. But I just can't lie.

How can I not love you?

What do I tell my heart?

When do I not want you here in my arms?

How does one waltz away from all of the memories?

How do I not miss you when you are gone?

How can I not love you?

...this is for you.

What You Have

Everything that we have, should be held tight, should be appreciated, should be placed at your best care, at your best concern. Because there'll be someday when they slip away from you, when nothing you do could take them back.

What you have right now are the ones that want to capture your very attention. They'll wish to whisper to your conscience if they could, to thank you when you treat them well. So why hesitate? Why ignoring instead of caring?

You don't have much time. Now is all you have, since the past has gone and the future is not yours to see. Appreciate them. Be grateful.

You and Yourself

It's been a long time since the last time I did this old habit of mine. The habit's gone since I happened to get my mind in doing something else.

Since ages, I always find it good to let my mind free, from every single other thing. And then, the mind will set its focus to the me myself. I usually spend it looking at the ceiling, or stars if I had the chance. And checking messages in inbox and sent items, just to grasp a scratch of how I response and what are the feedbacks. Or reading the old silly diaries, and sometimes adding other silly text there. And also going back and forth through my memory storage, reviewing everything that my senses had sensed, recalling everything that ever happened to me or the ones that had something to do with me.
It is to remember every step that had brought me to the place I'm standing right now. To remind me that the person I love deeply is my very self.

It is a great thing when you have a time for yourself, and I mean it really is only for you. It's a quality time that rarely occurs, which you are in the center of the other things, where you are the utmost concern. Oh it feels so nice letting your mind peacefully floating along with your imagination, and also smoothly delivering images behind your eyes that no one else can see.

Sometimes we feel this world rolls too fast, don't we? Since we were kids we used to think about us and us and us again, but we grew old and sometimes it's just hard to think only about us. There're lots of things stole the attention, and it's time to realize that in this life you can't just selfishly act based on your one and only will, because no one would like it when you talk only about you and yourself. World ask you to care first if you want to be taken care of. Therefore, your time is being sliced and sliced, leaving you only the slightest glimpse to catch yourself. So when you find the time, seize it.

Then just to share again. Sorry for being so selfishly talking about me ;p
Take care, people.

Things That Are Not Proper

Greetings. First of all, eid mubarak, people. Please do forgive my mistakes, and all the harsh words and everything in this blog that might not goes good through your senses. Yea I know it's soooo late but by the way. Better late than never, right?

I'd like to bow my head more and apologize if this writings of mine do nothing but bores you to death cause in my own case, I do bored. haha. Or are there ones that offense you so much? please forgive me for that too, sometimes my fingers type faster than my brain thinks. .....And sorry again for the excuses.

In this post, I intend to speak a certain thought, which in times has been swirling in my mind. Due to the rebellious age I'm in, I believe that this would be just a bull typing, so if you don't like it, I recommend you to just skip it.

You know, as a person get into other people, he creates new bonds, which should be taken care of. In any way that person willing to have. Some bonds requires more attention, and responsibilities. For example, you need to pay more attention to your family bond than to your friendship, although both are important to you. The responsibilities you have to bear are also different, whereas creating a family is much more complicated than meeting friends.

Family starts when a man and a woman promised to each other to be together sacredly, seriously, wholeheartedly. Hence, they are bound to the responsibility to take care and love each other. It is then by the will of God that this man and woman given tiny copy(ies) of them, their children. They are now parents, who now have another responsibility, to take care of their children. Even though the children might be troublesome, it's parents duty to pay attention to them, to be with them, to give them happiness to play with. To get this works, they need to work together.

So it is wrong to ignore each other. It is wrong to blame the children. It is wrong to lose trust on each other. It is wrong to say harsh thing, or worse, accuse each other. It is wrong to not listen to the children. It is wrong to let your emotion blew up. It is wrong to dominate the other person. It is wrong to put yourself above the other person, no matter how much 'happiness' you've brought home. It is wrong to not apologize. It is also wrong to ask for an apology, or moreover, beg for it. And it is an absolute mistake to drag everyone to feel guilty towards you --either direct or indirect--, or to make them, by your patience-destroying words, acknowledge your superiority.

You know parents, we admire you. From head to toe. We are your blood and your flesh, who can't exist without you. We did mistakes, yes, and we sorry for that. We know you've done great jobs, bringing the lights of the world home, and we deliberately grateful for that. Although we might not show... cause we thought our smile and laughter had told you. I don't know whether this would ring bad or what, but for God sake, you are grown-ups so please, can't you grasp the fact that the troubles come in this bond you create is the risk destined to you the second you agree to bear the bond?

...please, don't make us lose the affection towards you. we don't want it to be happening. and thanks for the money, if that's the matter.

and I'm not going to go against you or against the other.

...just want to share.

A Memory

Human's brain is the best computer ever exist. Name the most sophisticated computer people ever made, none has barely reach the same class as the brain. It has incredible space to save all events ever happen, to record everything ever seen, tasted, heard, touched whatsoever. It is the best storage to every thought, every memory.

It's a good thing that people could maintain their memories but then there are some memories that feel too troublesome, too hurting, unlikely to be remained. But you need to get what I'm gonna say next.

Although that memory isn't more than the one that offenses your heart, even it will always hurt your heart, and even for everyone the memory is so painful that it is best to get rid of it forever, you should never run away from it. If you're not running away and you keep on working, then one time you'll be able to appreciate the memory, and grateful that you still have it. It may be hard, but anyone can do it (not running away, I mean) if they believe they can. There is no memory that isn't valuable enough so it's going to be forgotten. God gives you a brain so you could remember, therefore there is no need for you to struggle trying to forget whatever painful memory you have. Believe me, every single memory is priceless.

I know I'm talking bull whatsoever, but that is clearly my own opinion. You could tell me yours, people. Be seeing you later!