Trust

It's like walking blindfolded, with someone with soft voice keeps telling you to keep going no matter what. And you're too helpless you have no other choice than trusting. You were thinking of giving up sometimes, but your hope of brightness is the only thread you're hanging onto. You know more than any other that the only thing you should never given up is this tiny hope in your palms. You can't live without it, you can only wish that that hope will not wither even in winter.

"...but I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell.

I know right now you can't tell,

But stay a while and maybe than you'll see

a different side of me

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired

I know right now you don't care

But soon enough you're gonna think of me

and how I used to be, me."

Matchbox Twenty - Unwell

Call Me Unreasonable

Sometimes you don't need reasons for your actions. You do things merely because you feel like doing it. You love someone or something simply because you love them. You hate things because they're not your liking. It's as simple as that. Reasons are important, but not in every single bit of life. Rather than seeking for the reason, appreciating is much, much better.

What will you do?

So, another year has passed. I got to admit that eventhough I've gone through 17 new-years until this time, and I do understand that there's nothing 'happy' in new year, I'll still say, happy new year! That's really a hypocrisy, but whatever.

I don't mind celebrating new year and I love it, in some ways. I have a friend come over my house and we killed the time by watching movie and do some girly quality talk. But still, the inevitable fact about new year is that another year of your lifetime is taken away. And there's no way in hell you could take them back.

What do you think about your time? What is the price of your second? A second passed so fast you wouldn't notice that it had already gone. Tick. Look, another second has gone again. And we don't think we're affected by those passing seconds. They don't really matter, do they?

Then wait until your plenty of seconds had been cut to almost nothing. You'll remember your unsatisfied desires; your dreams and wishes that you still had not reached; your family, friends, and lovers who you had not given adequate love yet. Tick, tick, tick. You're panic then, you're afraid that you'll lose your time again.

So, what will you do?

While you think............ Tick.

you'd waste your time if you read

greetings.

the thing about today is that this is the last day of 2009. this post will be another piece of trash, but whatever, I just don't have any other thing to do. yes it's new year eve, but I'm stuck here with nothing to do. so let me just hurt your eyes with some pointless words.

and the thing about ending this year is, doesn't it feel sad? a bit, at least? 2009 to me is a whole 365 days full with enormous things, vary from the monstrous to the tiniest ones. to recall them one by one is not a thing normal human can do. I'm still normal at much points I suppose, so I won't recall them, not one by one.

just now I'm trying to acces my so-called memories of 2009, my brain millions of scenes I'd passed. honestly, some of them were really ridiculous, yet precious and meaningful. to many people my days would be really ordinary, but to me, they were really really important. priceless.

okay honestly i don't know what else should i be typing and i know this post has really no point but forgive me, i really need to do something before my head explode out of boredom. gonna kick some pillow. bye for now, wish you a happy new year!

I am a gorgeous cheerleader with a nice smile. I punched Taylor Swift because I'm a pimp.

You've opened it!
You will have bad luck for four weeks!
But, if you re-post this,
You will get kissed by your crush on Friday!
Re post as "I am a ...."


What color of shirt are you wearing?
Red: Silly.
Brown: Cute.
Green: Gorgeous.
Blue: Sexy.
White: Muscular.
Aqua: Freaky.
Yellow: Innocent.
Purple: Little TOO happy.
Black/don't remember: EMO.
Orange: Funny.
Gray: Dumb.
Pink: Preppy.
Light pink: Sweaty.
Multicolored: Tree- hugging.
Other: Hot.
None: Sexy beast.

What kind of pants are you wearing?
Skirt/Skort: llama.
Corduroy: Cage fighter.
Skinny jeans: Pothead.
Shorts: Cheerleader.
Ripped Jeans: Skater.
Cammo: Hillbilly.
Jean short shorts: Whore.
Jeans: Prep.
Cargo: Clown.
Sweats/basketball shorts: Gangster.
Booty shorts: Bum.
Pajama Pants: Slut.
Checkered: Taco lover.
Nothing: Mother banger.

What is your NATURAL hair color?
Dark brown: With a hot boyfriend/ girlfriend.
Auburn: With a broken heart.
Red: With a hot butt.
Black: With a nice smile.
Dirty blond: With a hot body.
Brown: With beautiful eyes.
Blond: That flirts too much.
Strawberry blond: That is to much to handle.
Light brown: With amazing eyes.

You opened it, now you have to complete it.
Or something very bad will happen to your loved one.
READY SET GO!!
Pick The Month You Were Born In:
1. (jan) - I ran over.
2. (Feb) - I kicked.
3. (Mar)- I slapped.
4. (Apr) - I injured.
5. (May) - I ran shirtless with.
6. (June) - I modeled with.
7. (July) - I smoked with.
8. (Aug) - I ran with.
9. (Sept) - I kissed.
10. (Oct) - I robbed.
11. (Nov) - I hate.
12. (Dec) - I punched.

Pick the day (number) you were born on:
1. Barack Obama.
2. Lil Wayne.
3. Michael Jackson.
4. Zac efron.
5. Nick Jonas.
6. Paris Hilton.
7. Madonna.
8. Miley Cyrus.
9. Lady Gaga.
10. Elmo.
11. Taylor Swift.
12. Spongebob Squarepants.
13. Soulja Boy.
14. Lil' Mama.
15. Katy Perry.
16. Britney Spears.
17. Ryan Sheckler.
18. Big Foot.
19. Randy Jackson.
20. Mariah Carey.
21. Colby O'donis.
22. The Black Eyed Peas.
23. Simon Cowell.
24. Flava Flav.
25. Chris Brown.
26. The Cookie Monster.
27. Akon.
28. Barney the Dinosaur.
29. Paris Hilton.
30. Ronald McDonald.
31. Jenifer Green wood.

Pick the color of shirt you are wearing:
None: Because I'm SEXY like that.
Black: Because I love weed.
Pink: Because I'm crazy like that.
Turquoise: ​Because I like to snort cocaine.
Brown: Because gummy bears raped me.
Polka Dots: Because I'm a tranny.
Purple: Because I'm gay.
Grey: Because I like shoelaces.
Yellow: Because I'm retarded.
Green: Because I'm a pimp.
Orange: Because I'm a mental retard.
Red: Because I love sex.
Blue: Because I have AMAZING boobs.
Tye dye: Because I'm a fucking scuba diver.
Graphic: Because that LOSER stole my taco.
Coral: Because a dolphin took my baby.
White: Because i have a great body.
Neony: That's just how I roll.

She Was Mine

So I hopped on a train

Three in the afternoon

I don't know when I'm coming back

But I hope it's soon

See I'd never thought, never thought that I'd leave your side

It's only physically

But now that you'll be on my mind

Twenty four hours at a time

Cause in my eyes you were mine

No matter where you go

I won't be very far

Cause in my head I'll be right there where you are

Cause love has no distance baby,

Love, love has no distance baby,

No, not when it comes to you and me

See she wrote me this letter

Said the weather wasn't better

But she said that she's doing fine

I wanna see you face to face

That's what she wrote to me that day

and I knew it was all a sign

So I wrote back with this song

Promise it won't be too long

Wanna make up for all our lost time

Cause in my eyes you were mine

No matter where you go

I won't be very far

Cause in my head I'll be right there where you are

Cause love has no distance baby,

Love, love has no distance baby,

No, not when it comes to you and me

So I'm looking through this boxes

My life's gone off track

Cause it's been three years

She hasn't written back

But in my eyes

She's still mine

I know it sounds stupid

to be waiting this long

But I'm still in love and I know I'm not wrong

Cause in my eyes

She was mine

No matter where you go

I won't be very far

Cause in my head I'll be right there where you are

Cause love has no distance baby,

Love, love has no distance baby,

No, not when it comes to you and me

She Was Mine by A.J. Rafael feat. Jesse Barrera

~I know this lyric is somehow cheesy but whocares, I love it!

Could you differ?

When you were learning how to ride a bicycle, you'll ask a person to place a good grip on your bike, so that you won't fall.

The first time you were learning how to walk, you'd like someone to watch your back, so when you're about to fall, that someone will catch you, will leave you no harm, you're safe and sound.

Now that you've grown up, things changed a bit. You'll walk, yes, this time without anyone get a hold on you or to catch you when you fall. But in this path you're walking, you'll eventually find a person, a certain person, who will help you to stand once again everytime you fall.

ingin ditemukan

"sedang apa?"

"mencari orang."

"orang siapa?"

"si pasangan."

"mengapa?"

"karena setiap orang yang hilang ingin ditemukan."

RLA, 221209. 10:33 a.m.