The Sweet Phone Call

I really really want to erase yesterday from the calendar of my life, God was letting that horrible thing happened to me and I'd lost much of my strength and patience so.............well, skip that part. But I made it through, helped by this special sweet guy of mine God had created. He called me right away and as soon as I heard his voice I lost my control on my lachrymal gland.

It was around 11 p.m. And he accompanied me -by phone- until I got a grip on myself, it had past 2 a.m. I spent more time silent though, forgive me for that please. The call made me feel a kind of speechless thingy but I didn't want to end it. We played truth or truth, and also did a kind of nostalgic conversation, retrieving everything we'd gone through until this very time. It pleased me. Much. How could I thank you?



p.s. I love you. I really really do.

Life, Love and Friendship

Life ends when you stop Dreaming,
Hope ends when you stop Believing,
Love ends when you stop Caring,
And Friendship ends when you stop Sharing.

It's not me who made those words, and I don't focus on anything specific while copying those statements here. I'm not wise nor poetic, and I admit I did mistakes so many times. All I wanna say is please say what you need to say, unless you want people misunderstand you.

Universe

The universe always amazes me, makes me feel so tiny, little, incapable of doing anything, compared to the Creator of this universe I'm living in, God. I'm not going to talk about religion here, it's just I have just realized that I had missed so many things, and I did many things quite ungrateful.

Compared to the big big universe, humans are just... small. The world would still rolling no matter which person died, however important that person was to the world. Take the example Thomas A. Edison, the person who brings light to people's nights, he had invented a great thing, brought great impact to the world, but when he died, people might feel blue for times but then, it's it. World keeps rolling.

Lately I feel the night sometimes offer me many miraculous things to discover.. I tend to wake up in the middle of the night or at an early dawn, see the sky (which was not bright, most covered with the polution), and then I wondered, where was the end of that sky? Would it be some kind of ceiling, so when we somehow climb and climb the sky we could barely touch it? Then if it were ceiling, would it still be a roof at the upper side of it? And if there were roof, wouldn't it mean there were still another sky upon it?

It's confusing but still, it's amazing. I wonder what could we find at the end of the sky. Studying the universe is much more difficult than studying another thing, microbe or virus for example. I'm not saying that studying those things are easy, but just grasp this point of view. When we are studying something, we should take a look at the outer first, then we try to understand what's inside, right? But trying to understand the universe is different. We are inside the universe, so we learn it from the inside first, then we try to take a peek out of it. It's harder, right? It's like ant trying to learn human's life.

The planets, the galaxies, the stars, the comet, the moon, the sun. They are what we know so far and there are still lots to discover but just the fact that they truly exist has amazed me, to much extent.

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Lazyyyyyyyyyyyy

Dooooooooooh. I have several tasks to be done but I don't really feel like doing any of them. I realize that I'm way too lazy, but still, I can't do anything about it.

The exams are coming closer, it is going to be held right a week from now, but I've done nothing to overcome the questions. Are there any ways to cure laziness? But then, come to think of it, I know that it was just between your mind and body, whether they want to get rid of things of not. I guess my body still doesn't want to move an inch from this warm and comfortable bed of mine. Or it's just my will that lack of strength. Oh dilligent people out there, bring me to that clear path of yours, ...please.

Hatred

I really hate to say this, but dear big brother, I really hate you.

I know that blood is thicker than water, but whatever, you've dried all my patience. I hate it when you leave home, but I dislike it either when you stay. Why, because all you do is make a mess, not only in the house's rooms or wherever, but also in my very mind, and soul. You've broken all my imagination of a helping and protecting brother. Worst, I can't even see you as my brother. Anymore.

Oh God please forgive me.

Built to Last

I've looked for love in stranger places,
but never found someone like you.
Someone whose smile makes me feel I've been holding back,
and now there's nothing I can't do.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

All of our friends saw from the start.
So why didn't we believe it too?
Whoa yeah, now look where we are.
You're in my heart now.
And there's no escaping it for you.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

Walking on the hills that night with those fireworks and candlelight
You and I were made to get love right

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

'Cause you are the sun in my universe,
considered the best when we've felt the worst
and most of all it's built to last.

Built to Last - Melee

Bigger Problem?

I really hate when people are saying, "You have no idea of what I'm suffering, my problem is bigger than yours."

Honestly, I started thinking about that when a very best friend of mine told me a story, and made my eyes open to this fact. I can't agree more. Called her A. She has always seem strong, laughs here and there, throws jokes around, makes everyone loves her. She is really really great since she never shows any signal of having problems--until she told me of them. Then it's time for her to love her only one, but then it turns out to be that person she loves prefer another girl with bigger problem.

I really want to talk to that guy about this, that you can never tell someone's problem is bigger than the others. It is relative. I mean, just see this mere fact, there is a person who doesn't care how bad is his scores but then there is another person who always feels crazy about it, maybe because this person's parents always make a fuss of it.

Oh and everyone knows this quote, right? that God doesn't give you a problem that you can't solve. See? Each problem designed for each person has specific difficulty according to the person. It's just stupid to say that a person's problem is so tiny, little or unimportant.

Just end your big show, man. You're not the superhero who knows which person has bigger problem for you to help her.