The Sweet Phone Call

I really really want to erase yesterday from the calendar of my life, God was letting that horrible thing happened to me and I'd lost much of my strength and patience so.............well, skip that part. But I made it through, helped by this special sweet guy of mine God had created. He called me right away and as soon as I heard his voice I lost my control on my lachrymal gland.

It was around 11 p.m. And he accompanied me -by phone- until I got a grip on myself, it had past 2 a.m. I spent more time silent though, forgive me for that please. The call made me feel a kind of speechless thingy but I didn't want to end it. We played truth or truth, and also did a kind of nostalgic conversation, retrieving everything we'd gone through until this very time. It pleased me. Much. How could I thank you?



p.s. I love you. I really really do.

Life, Love and Friendship

Life ends when you stop Dreaming,
Hope ends when you stop Believing,
Love ends when you stop Caring,
And Friendship ends when you stop Sharing.

It's not me who made those words, and I don't focus on anything specific while copying those statements here. I'm not wise nor poetic, and I admit I did mistakes so many times. All I wanna say is please say what you need to say, unless you want people misunderstand you.

Universe

The universe always amazes me, makes me feel so tiny, little, incapable of doing anything, compared to the Creator of this universe I'm living in, God. I'm not going to talk about religion here, it's just I have just realized that I had missed so many things, and I did many things quite ungrateful.

Compared to the big big universe, humans are just... small. The world would still rolling no matter which person died, however important that person was to the world. Take the example Thomas A. Edison, the person who brings light to people's nights, he had invented a great thing, brought great impact to the world, but when he died, people might feel blue for times but then, it's it. World keeps rolling.

Lately I feel the night sometimes offer me many miraculous things to discover.. I tend to wake up in the middle of the night or at an early dawn, see the sky (which was not bright, most covered with the polution), and then I wondered, where was the end of that sky? Would it be some kind of ceiling, so when we somehow climb and climb the sky we could barely touch it? Then if it were ceiling, would it still be a roof at the upper side of it? And if there were roof, wouldn't it mean there were still another sky upon it?

It's confusing but still, it's amazing. I wonder what could we find at the end of the sky. Studying the universe is much more difficult than studying another thing, microbe or virus for example. I'm not saying that studying those things are easy, but just grasp this point of view. When we are studying something, we should take a look at the outer first, then we try to understand what's inside, right? But trying to understand the universe is different. We are inside the universe, so we learn it from the inside first, then we try to take a peek out of it. It's harder, right? It's like ant trying to learn human's life.

The planets, the galaxies, the stars, the comet, the moon, the sun. They are what we know so far and there are still lots to discover but just the fact that they truly exist has amazed me, to much extent.

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Lazyyyyyyyyyyyy

Dooooooooooh. I have several tasks to be done but I don't really feel like doing any of them. I realize that I'm way too lazy, but still, I can't do anything about it.

The exams are coming closer, it is going to be held right a week from now, but I've done nothing to overcome the questions. Are there any ways to cure laziness? But then, come to think of it, I know that it was just between your mind and body, whether they want to get rid of things of not. I guess my body still doesn't want to move an inch from this warm and comfortable bed of mine. Or it's just my will that lack of strength. Oh dilligent people out there, bring me to that clear path of yours, ...please.

Hatred

I really hate to say this, but dear big brother, I really hate you.

I know that blood is thicker than water, but whatever, you've dried all my patience. I hate it when you leave home, but I dislike it either when you stay. Why, because all you do is make a mess, not only in the house's rooms or wherever, but also in my very mind, and soul. You've broken all my imagination of a helping and protecting brother. Worst, I can't even see you as my brother. Anymore.

Oh God please forgive me.

Built to Last

I've looked for love in stranger places,
but never found someone like you.
Someone whose smile makes me feel I've been holding back,
and now there's nothing I can't do.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

All of our friends saw from the start.
So why didn't we believe it too?
Whoa yeah, now look where we are.
You're in my heart now.
And there's no escaping it for you.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

Walking on the hills that night with those fireworks and candlelight
You and I were made to get love right

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

'Cause you are the sun in my universe,
considered the best when we've felt the worst
and most of all it's built to last.

Built to Last - Melee

Bigger Problem?

I really hate when people are saying, "You have no idea of what I'm suffering, my problem is bigger than yours."

Honestly, I started thinking about that when a very best friend of mine told me a story, and made my eyes open to this fact. I can't agree more. Called her A. She has always seem strong, laughs here and there, throws jokes around, makes everyone loves her. She is really really great since she never shows any signal of having problems--until she told me of them. Then it's time for her to love her only one, but then it turns out to be that person she loves prefer another girl with bigger problem.

I really want to talk to that guy about this, that you can never tell someone's problem is bigger than the others. It is relative. I mean, just see this mere fact, there is a person who doesn't care how bad is his scores but then there is another person who always feels crazy about it, maybe because this person's parents always make a fuss of it.

Oh and everyone knows this quote, right? that God doesn't give you a problem that you can't solve. See? Each problem designed for each person has specific difficulty according to the person. It's just stupid to say that a person's problem is so tiny, little or unimportant.

Just end your big show, man. You're not the superhero who knows which person has bigger problem for you to help her.

scribdddddd

At the last day of my holiday (which was yesterday), I went nowhere and did nothing interesting... but that was before I opened blogs, and read even to the comment page. Then I found this site to download books, you could click here.
You should subscribe on that site before you could download the books.
To me, that site feels like, well maybe just a bit like..........heaven. I download 18 novels right away and still craving for more hahaha.
The 18 novels are:
- Midnight Sun by Stephenie Meyer
- Magyk by Septimus Heap
- Flyte by Septimus Heap
- Princess Diaries series (only 4 of them) by Meg Cabot
- Size 12 is Not Fat by Meg Cabot -- unfortunately I can't find the other book: Size 14 is not Fat Either
- Chronicles of Narnia series (the whole 7) by C.S. Lewis
- The Tales of Beedle the Bard by J.K. Rowling
- Breakfast at Tiffanys by Truman Capote
- Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom

ooooooh I really really love that site!

11 May 2009

The day is fun. Oh, it's more than just fun actually. It's wonderful. For me, at least.
At the morning, I did my Puapala thingy, meeting the judges and get the clearance of the payment and whatsoever, and then I went to Plaza Semanggi right in the middle of the pouring rain (which makes me love this day more) to meet my lover haha. I prefer using the transjakarta bus to using taxi, but I didn't bring my umbrella so I forcefully took the taxi instead.
I got there much sooner than him, but I really didn't mind that, I'm accompanied by the books before he came haha.
Actually the day was simple, nothing too wonderful, just ate and watched a film and walked around together, but it's him that makes everything seems shimmering. Lebaaaaaaaay hahahaha but I really thank God, and Edwin, to gave this day for me.

5

It's for the fifth month, and for my very dear, whose name starts with the fifth letter of the alphabet.
It's a bad drawing, I know haha. Anyway, happy fifth month dear ;-)

flat

It's holiday, but I just feel...... flat. I don't feel like posting something though. I'm just so bored with this home alone thingy.

50 First Reactions

blogwalking and got this from Nunu's blog.

This is called 50 FIRST REACTIONS... Type what comes to your mind FIRST whenever you hear these 50 words. Don't think and don't go back and change. Doesn't matter how random just type it! Re-post it for all of your friends.


1. Beer: sin
2. Food: cake
3. Relationship: edwin
4. Crush: junior high
5. Power Rangers: red
6. Life: tiring
7. The President: SBY
8. Yummy: delicious?
9. Car: kind of vehicle men made
10. Movie: cinema
11. Halloween: jack o' lantern
12. Sex: adult things
13. Religion: islam
14. Hate: tasks. oh and annoying people
15. Fear: bee. and corn haha
16. Marriage: bride and groom
17. Blondes: hair
18. Slippers: sandals
19. Shoes: sneakers
20. Asians: fair complexion?
21. Pastime: childhood
22. One night stand: euh
23. My cell phone: need to get a new one
24. Smoke: a big no
25. Fantasy: dragon! (I want to have one, or be friend with one to be able to ride on his back haha)
27. High school Life: tiring, but well exciting
28. Pyjamas: sleep
29. Stars: yellow - coldplay
30. Center: in the middle?
31. Alcohol: drink
32. The word LOVE: indescribable
33. Friends: mates
34. Money: I need much of it, asap
35. Heartache: ignored
36. Time: need more than 24 hours a day
37. Divorce: celebrities
38. Dogs: not my future pet
39. Undies: novels!
40. Parents: they're going somewhere
41. Babies: wishing to have twins one day
42. Ex: past
43. Song: music
44. Color: green
45. Weddings: sacred
46. Pizza: Deluxe Cheese. at Pizza Hut haha
47. Hangout: spazierengehen (ha)
48. Rest: think nothing
49. Goal : aim?
50. Inspiration: mom's hair

Recently

Ooooooh I really really into my novels these days (although I am disturbed by the tests teacher given me. I bought two novels recently, one titled "Kau Memanggilku Malaikat", and I can't say more than greaaaaaaaaaaat. It is great, I love the way Mr Arswendo show me an unusual point of view, an angel's mind. It is really worth buying, and it's not expensive, only 37 thousand rupiahs. Cheap, right?

The other novel I bought is another novel by Cornelia Funke, Drachenreiter (baca: drahenraiter) -- Penunggang Naga. I haven't finish reading it yet, it's a fantasy one, I buy it to spill some ice to my brain and relieve my nerves of getting stress.

And oh talking about stress, I don't know what happen to me but my hair just keeps falling and falling! I'm so afraid of getting bald, really. I'm not taking it too much, but it really is that bad. If you touch the upper part of my head, you'll only get a touch of thin hair, you may even touch my scalp. Oh I need to get my hair healthy again, somebody help meeeeeeeee

I may not forget, but I forgive. Because the important point is you, not me. And it is about today, not yesterday. Even though nothing lasts forever, I have my believe that it's great to be together

Missing

I MISS YOU